You won't hear me tell you how important it is that you see a healer, it's your life and your decisions, not anyone else's. The same goes for your feelings. They're not silly, or bad, or wrong, or right, they're just yours and you're the one who needs to live with them. Only you can figure out what is right and wrong for you, but by the sounds of it you already know what you need. It's up to you to do the rest. All any of the rest of us can hope to do is to be there if you need us.
I hope you know I'm someone who will always be there if you need to talk, or just take a walk along the beach one day.
Victoire and Dom are both doing well. They're staying at Shell Cottage at the moment, though I suppose that won't last for long. Dinner sounds like an excellent idea. Let me know when it suits you.