"Well, can't have that. Who will keep me company if you fall asleep?" His grin was small, but genuine, and so was the appreciation of the distraction, and the offer.
The smile didn't last though, and he wished it were as easy to believe Dylan as it was to blame himself. "Be that as it may, it was still my idea. A lot of other factors may have gone into this, but a lot of it was me."
He closed his eyes briefly, just to have a minute to compose himself. "There were a lot of mistakes made, but if I hadn't wanted pizza today, immediately, he'd still be here. I know that Dylan, and nothing can change it."