remus lupin is finally at peace. (moonstricken) wrote in blurred_owls, @ 2009-08-19 02:10:00 |
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[ OOC: Sirius and Marlene's letters were left undelivered. ] 22 April 1980 Padfoot, Prongs, & Wormtail, If you're reading this, either Padfoot has gone though my things again, or -- well, we all know what these letters are for. The impact all of you have made on my life is one I had never expected before I attended Hogwarts that first day. Before school, I didn't have any friends because of my condition; parents didn't want their children around someone like me. Too dangerous, they said. It didn't matter whether it was the full moon or not. So when the three of you included me in so many of the things you did, treating me like an equal instead of some monster -- actually wanting to be my friend -- my condition was something I wanted to keep a secret from you all forever. And when even that did not end our friendships, I knew that I had something that I never wanted to let go of. All of you mean so much to me. I cannot imagine how my life would have been without any of you in it -- perhaps quieter, but much lonelier. We've had our difficulties, but when it came down to it, we were always there for each other. You've all given me more happiness than I could have ever repaid. Without you, I don't think I would have ever really lived my life, and all my dreams were built up from borrowed hope and courage. Stay close to each other. Don't lose hope; I know all of you will keep fighting. My will is attached to Marlene's letter, should there be a reason any of you need to see it. I do not have many requests. I ask for my body to be cremated, but I will leave where the ashes are spread up to the three of you, Lily, and Marlene; all I want is that all of you do what you need to get the closure to move on. Watch over Marlene for me. Make sure she's okay and that she lives a happy life -- and along those same lines, watch over each other. Marauders don't leave anyone behind. It's strange to think that I won't be here anymore when you read this. I felt that I would have more to say in these letters, but I'm not really sure what else to write. Allow me a moment of femininity to say that I wish I could have said goodbye to each of you in person instead of something as impersonal as writing on paper. You've made my life worth living. Thank you all. For everything. Love, Moony |
21 April 1981 James, I don't know if any of us ever told you this, but you have always been the glue that kept all of us together. You are the backbone of the Marauders, and it seems like something that comes to you as naturally as breathing. Every time there has been a large falling out (and I realise most of them were because of Sirius and myself -- I apologise for that), there's always been you to talk sense into both our heads, even if it took months for everything to return to normalcy. That's an admirable trait to have, James; you've never given up on your friends. Your endless energy was a little overwhelming when we first met, to be honest, but it made learning how to act around other people a little easier for me. I think I would have withdrawn from everyone if it hadn't been for your determination for us all to be friends. You and Sirius drove my mum mad sometimes with how much trouble you got me into (she seemed to be under the impression that I didn't help all the time with our pranks), but she loved you both all the same. She said she could see the difference having friends did for me, and I know that you played a large factor in that. It's hard to believe that, as I write this letter, I know that you're going to be a father -- and I know you're going to be an amazing one. I wish I could have been around to see him or her. No matter what happens with this war, your child is going to grow up in a loving family. You've always made me feel like part of yours. Love, Remus P.S. - Try to remember to keep your wand on you. |
21 April 1981 Sirius, It seems a strange contradiction to write that I feel that you were my best friend, and yet at the same time we had the most falling outs -- some of them much worse than others. Despite this, it was always you I wanted to go to for advice when I needed it, you who I confided with my secrets (even though you've only kept them secrets only half of the time), and you who I went to when I needed a second for a duel. I suppose it is because you are the complete opposite of me in nearly every way, and I both envy and admire that. For as long as I've known you, you have always done whatever you pleased and damn the consequences. You are unafraid to speak your mind, unafraid to be yourself, and unafraid to just live your life the way you want to. Thank you for inviting me to share a flat with you after we left Hogwarts. Thinking back on it now as I write this letter, I really miss those early days when we first moved in, despite how many times I wanted to strangle you when we were unpacking. I wish I hadn't taken the normal things in my life like that for granted now that there isn't anything normal left, but I'll still treasure the things that weren't. Thank you for keeping me company as Padfoot after the full moons (before Marlene took over taking care of me). It helped not to be alone while I was too tired to get out of bed. I've often wondered what it must be like to feel as free as you've always seemed, and I hope that you don't let anyone take that away from you. I can't begin to imagine how many opportunities in my life that I've missed because I've been too afraid to do anything, so don't let any of them pass you by. Thank you for all those times you've pushed and encouraged me to take chances; I just want you to be careful with your own. I don't want to see you up here any sooner than I should, as much as I know I'll miss you. Take care of yourself. Love, Remus P.S. - You have my permission to call me a girl for the sappy letters. |
20 April 1981 Peter, I'm sorry to be leaving you to deal with Sirius and James on your own. Don't let them drive you too crazy; you and I both know exactly how they can be. You and Lily will have to make sure they don't go get themselves killed doing something stupid. Thank you for not letting me be the only sane person in our circle of friends; I'm not sure either of us could have stayed out of the mad house if we were left to go through Hogwarts with Sirius and James on our own. (And thank you for putting up with me during my own less-than-sane moments.) I know things seem dark and hopeless right now, and I know it's hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel, but one day the war will end. If we don't keep faith that we can make a difference, it'll just make it that much harder to keep going. I know it's easy for me to say, as I will be gone when you read this, but it's something I still believed when I was alive. Many of the things I have in my life as I write this letter are things I thought would be impossible for me to ever have -- an education, friends who are as good as family, a wife -- and yet I still have them. It just goes to show that no matter how impossible something may seem, there is always hope. You're a very talented wizard, and I don't want to see you sell yourself short of everything you've accomplished. Very few people can master becoming an animagus; and even fewer at such a young age in such a short amount of time. That takes an incredible amount of skill. I know you can do great things, and that's what I hope for your future: I want to see you succeed. Don't let anyone hold you back or tell you otherwise. Take care. Love, Remus |
20 April 1980 Lily, I'm sorry to be leaving you to deal with Sirius and James on your own. Don't let them drive you too crazy, but I know you're a strong enough woman to take them both down a notch when they deserve it (and I know that is often). They'd have to be mad to argue with you -- which, they are, so I wish you luck. Thank you for always staying with Marlene during the full moons. I know that having the company helped her. You're a brilliant witch; I've never been very good at Potions, but I know enough to recognise your extraordinary talent. I can tell that whatever you choose to do with your life, you will go far. You're going to be an amazing mother. I wish I could have been around to see your child when he or she is born and be there to watch him or her grow up, but I know you'll raise him or her well. Good luck raising that Quidditch team that James seems so determined to have (or persuading him that you are not going to go through that many pregnancies). Take good care of yourself, and don't lose hope. Love, Remus P.S. - Just to warn you: Using a Silencing Charm on Sirius only makes him more annoying. (I know. I didn't think it was possible either.) |
20 April 1980 Marlene, There is no easy way to start this, is there? If you're reading this, I'm sure you know what it is and I can only say how sorry I am that you have to read another one of these. All of us have already lost so much, and the last thing I would want was to make you go through this again -- but you've always been strong, Marlene. It's something I have always admired and loved about you; even when you are afraid, you've always managed to stand up and pull through. All I ask is that you keep doing just that -- keep getting back up. Don't give up. You have so much to offer to so many people; your friendship, your enthusiasm, your determination, your talent in Herbology -- I want you to keep going and have a long, happy life. One day you are going to be a wonderful Herbology Professor and the greenhouses will flourish more than they have in years under your care. I want to thank you for all the experiences you've shared with me -- both the good and the bad. You have given me so many memories that I will always treasure. I am glad that we were paired up to patrol so often so that I was able to get to know you better (and I will admit, when Alice asked me to take over writing the patrol schedule, I had taken advantage of that to pair us together even more; I often had to stop myself so as not to appear too obvious). Thank you for saying yes to that first date; I don't think I could have imagined it any better than the way it had gone, although I think I could have gone without the incident with the fortune teller. I hope that I had been able to make you as happy as you made me. Despite every time I tried to push you away, you never let me ruin the wonderful thing developing between us, and I thank you for that. Thank you for staying with me through thick and thin, thank you for never losing faith in us even when I was at my most difficult (and I know I was -- I am sorry for that), and thank you for marrying me. That was both the most terrifying and happiest day of my life, and I do not regret a second of it. I suppose I should get to the details of my will. You will find it attached to this letter -- I don't have much, but I am leaving all I own to you. Take care of Lady for me. I know she would be happiest staying with you and her mother. You don't have to keep everything; if you think something I have would be better served elsewhere, I will leave that up to you. As for my body -- and I've included this in the letter to the guys as well -- but I'd like to be cremated. As for what to do with my ashes, I will leave that up to you, Lily, and the guys to decide. Do with them what will give all of you the most closure. That's all I want. I will miss you more than you know, but I don't want you to be in a hurry to see me again. Live, be happy -- and I will be here waiting to greet you when it's time. Love always, Remus |
22 April 1981 Genevieve, I wanted to apologise for deceiving you. My name is not actually Bradley Macmillan, although I cannot tell you what my real name is. However, if you are reading this letter, then you should know that I have died. I'm afraid any excuse I have for what I have done are just more secrets I cannot share, even after death. I do not expect forgiveness; I would be surprised if you weren't angry at me. However, I still wanted to write this letter of apology -- I owe you that much. Playing tricks on women is not something I like to do, and I wouldn't have done it if I did not have a good reason. While you may not hold my words to much value after my confession, not everything I said to you was a lie. I do think that Marius Lestrange doesn't deserve your heartache over him; you are a better and more beautiful woman than he deserves. Don't sell yourself short. [Unsigned] |