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bl_collin ([info]bl_collin) wrote in [info]bloodlines_rp,
@ 2017-08-02 22:04:00

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Entry tags:!retcon, collin haussler (oc), dec 2002, loc: falcons team flats, loc: london, nicholas fleming (npc), oliver wood, type: rp

Awful Truth
Date & Time: Saturday, 28 December 2002 | Evening
Post Type: RP
Status: Complete
Character(s): Collin Haussler, Oliver Wood, other Falcons as needed/wanted
Location: Falmouth Falcons Training Facility and Team Flats
Summary: The Falcons deal with the aftermath of an incident at their most recent game
Retcon Info: Picks up after this thread, except with it pushed back to the 20th and other Dec threads pushed back accordingly. No major changes.

“What the actual fuck were you thinking, Haussler?”

Fleming’s voice carried into the common area, but Collin simply sat there, gazing down at his hands in his lap. He was tired in a way that he hadn’t been since he’d been in hiding just because of his blood status. The ferocity he had shown on the pitch just a few hours ago had vanished altogether when the Magical Games Department’s owl had arrived with a very formal looking document that said, in part, “…suspended, pending a formal review.”

It might well have been a howler as much as the words were echoing around his head. “I’m serious, Collin,” Fleming was saying; his voice had gone hoarse from all of the shouting he had done both at the match and in the subsequent hours, at him, at the team, and at the officials. “What the hell happened out there?”

Collin glanced up at his captain, but couldn’t hold his gaze. “I couldn’t let him say that about Elena,” he mumbled, and felt his face grow warm. “You didn’t hear him.”

As excuses went, it was really bad. It had been really bad at the time, of course, kind of the worse, but his rational mind had been temporarily obliterated by blind fury and the sort of bone-deep grief that he wasn’t even aware he was capable of feeling until he was dragging the other man 50 feet to the ground, fists pummeling every square inch he could get his hands on. His own throat still felt raw from the primal screams that had been ripped from him as he attacked. It was only their hard landing that had finally snapped him out of it. Collin had taken the brunt of that landing, still had the burn of healing ribs to show for it, the ache of newly patched lungs reminding him of his shocking display with every shallow breath.

Fleming stared at him, he could sense it, could feel the weight of his disapproval in the shadow that loomed over him. “We’ll fight this,” the other man said, and Collin saw the shadow unfold his arms, saw one of them start to reach out toward him, but it fell back to his side. Even his shadow looked tired. “We’ll get you reinstated, but it’s pretty likely that the Department will drag their feet on this. We’re not exactly the golden child of the league. Merlin, Collin, you almost killed him.”

He winced, but otherwise didn’t move or say anything else. Fleming pushed out a slow sigh, and then walked to his office door and pulled it open. “Pack a few things, and then head to your parents’ place. The Department’s letter was very clear about this point. We’ll owl you with any updates.”

Collin nodded his understanding miserably, pushed himself to stand stiffly, and then left the office. This was officially the worst day ever.



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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-03 06:28 am UTC (link)
"Where are they?" Oliver said without actually stopping his movement. Whether it was his glare or the purposeful strides he was taking, his teammates stepped out of his way without prompting. Gallager pointed toward office at the far end of the facility, and as Oliver approached he could hear raised voices.

The door opened just as Oliver reached it, and he immediately sidestepped Collin without looking at the other man's face. He wasn't sure he could keep moving if he saw Collin's expression. Instead, he entered the office without invitation and barely looked at their team captain before saying, "You know this ruling is bullshit. Zimmerman intentionally baited him!" Oliver pointed over his shoulder to the direction Collin had gone. "You've seen all the press about the Wasps lately. They just wanted to play the martyr and get the attention away from the fact that they've alienated their best players with their ridiculous paranoia."

Fleming held out his hands in a motion that was probably supposed to be calming. "Zimmerman left the field in a bloody pile. Baiting or not, the League had to do something."

Oliver made a dismissive noise. "You do remember our team motto, right? Collin barely touched the surface of some of the things that got the Broadmoor brothers suspended. He's the fucking scapegoat."

"I know. What do you expect me to do, Wood?" This time, the frustration was evident in the older man's voice. Oliver almost felt bad for venting at him. "We'll appeal the suspension and get Haussler back on as soon as we can."

"Fine," Oliver said, his mouth set in a firm line. "Let me know when that is. In the meantime, I'm sure Valencia will enjoy the time on the pitch." He turned to stalk out of the room, but then paused and added, "I know this isn't your fault, Nic. But the rulings the League has made this season have been ludicrous. This is only the latest example...and for me, the last straw." Then he kept walking until he'd caught up with Collin.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-04 02:43 am UTC (link)
There was a part of Collin that had been terrified to see Oliver's reaction to the Department's edict. This was only solidified when he was leaving Nic's office and Oliver wouldn't even look at him. He hurried away from the door, not wanting to hear what was being said now, though he could still hear Oliver's voice as he got further away. Geena and Hertz made a valiant effort to talk to him as he passed, but he shook his head resolutely and waved them off. He wasn't sure what he would do if he tried to talk about it. Really, what the hell could he possibly even say?

Collin was so wrapped up in his own thoughts that he wasn’t even aware that Oliver had caught up with him until he felt his presence at his side. He glanced over at him, but quickly back again. “Come to see me off?” For some reason, he found himself smiling faintly, impossibly touched by Oliver being there, just at this moment. "You’re the only one I wouldn’t mind."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-04 03:00 am UTC (link)
Oliver was still seething with mostly bottled-up anger, but he forced himself not to let it show as he walked back through the gauntlet of his teammates. He wanted to offer up some warning about watching their backs, or encouragement for continuing the season without two of their starting players, but he didn't trust himself to open his mouth. As they got past the common rooms and were alone in the hallway, though, the sound of Collin's voice somehow broke through that haze of emotion. Not fully, but it at least freed his voice again.

"See you off?" Apparently the other wizard hadn't stuck around to hear all the words that Oliver and Fleming had exchanged. Not that Oliver could blame him. He would have wanted to be anywhere else, too, if this had been centred on him. "Sure. And to pack my bags. You actually planning to stay with your parents, or somewhere else?" He considered his own options for a brief moment. "Suppose I'll ask George if he could stand a roommate for a bit."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-05 03:40 am UTC (link)
"Thought I'd go to a hotel for the night, actually. If I tried to pop home at this hour, my mum and dad would kill me. Best if I give them some kind of heads up." Collin's shoulder rose a little in a half-hearted shrug. He felt sort of warm all over at the thought of Oliver being with him as he left for who knew how long.

His mind was full of a kind of buzz, making it seem like he was viewing reality through some kind of hazy filter. This would explain why it took a moment for what Oliver had been saying to finally make its way through his brain. When it did, Collin froze and stared- wide-eyed- at him. "Wait. What?"

He staggered into a walk again, keeping pace with Oliver again, but still staring over at him. He was silent for a time, but eventually shook his head fiercely, and let out a low, almost moaning, "Oliver, no. You can't. Not-" for me, and wasn't that just most egotistical and selfish thing he could have possibly thought?- "not now. You love this team, love the game." His voice broke a little. "Please don't."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-05 04:17 am UTC (link)
Oliver had expected Collin to be surprised, but he hadn't expected quite this level of vehemence in his response. "And let the League get away with this? Not a chance." He kept walking, not looking over at Collin, but it was easy enough to imagine the other man's expression. Oliver didn't want to see it right now. He needed his indignation to last through packing his bag, at the very least. "I didn't do anything when they instituted the testing policy, because we didn't follow it. I didn't say anything when even the Harpies starting rejecting players. But now? I'm not letting this slide."

He stopped as they reached the door to Collin's flat, leaning one shoulder against the doorframe in an approximation of a casual stance. He made the mistake of looking over as the other man stepped up to the door. His chest felt tight, but somehow it only solidified his resolve. His voice dropped lower, deeper as he spoke again. "Damn right I love it. I'm the League's top Keeper, three years running. I've put my fucking soul into this game. And I'm bloody well not going to let the bureaucrats taint it by using my teammate as a whipping boy and not make a statement about it."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-05 02:33 pm UTC (link)
Collin couldn't say a single word while Oliver explained himself- the constriction in his throat wouldn't allow for any sound. Besides, he felt like something had broken between his mouth and his brain, so that his thoughts were crashing furiously against a dam that refused to break. Of course he agreed with Oliver; the policy was complete shite. The League's handling of the entire situation was a fucking travesty. And now Oliver, probably the most gifted Keeper he'd ever had the pleasure of playing with, was willing to walk away from it. And all because he'd fucking lost it. This might not have been entirely his fault, but he was still blaming himself. He'd been Oliver's last straw. He fumbled with his wand a bit as they reached his flat, nearly dropping it, but managed to get the door open. Turning his face, he fixed Oliver with an inscrutable look for a long moment.

Finally, he pushed out a small breath, not even aware he'd been holding it in, and then he grabbed Oliver's arm and hauled him into his flat. The door shut as soon as they were both inside, and then suddenly he was slamming Oliver back against it, hand already at the back of his head to cradle it from any unintentional blow, and kissing him hard. He poured everything he was feeling into it: desperation, fear, anger, gratitude, and affection that was unequal to the mutually agreed upon level of casual they were supposed to be keeping to. It was messy, just this side of too much, even a little painful, and Collin couldn't decide where to put his hands, so they went everywhere.

It was also over far too quickly for what he had wanted, but his abused lungs were screaming at him. He pulled back just enough to lean his forehead against Oliver's, breath coming in harsh gasps against the other man's lips. And then he finally found words, and they were equal parts demand and plea. "Stay with me tonight."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-05 03:52 pm UTC (link)
When Collin didn't respond to his explanation, the tightness in Oliver's chest lessened somehow. As outspoken as Collin could be, that wasn't his normal demeanour, and this quieter side of him was what Oliver knew best. Away from the Pitch, anyway. That thought brought back images of today's game, ending with things he really didn't want to remember. He'd seen the way Zimmerman looked once they'd pulled Collin away, but mostly he remembered the blood on Collin, and the odd way he'd been breathing....

He swallowed away that thought, too, and had just enough time to take a deep breath before he was inside the flat and pressed back against the door. His already fragile composure snapped in an instant, and he shuddered even as he gripped Collin's shirt and kissed him back with equal ferocity. This wasn't how they were. Every other moment between them had been calm, cool, casual...simple. There was nothing simple about this.

Oliver's grip didn't lessen, even as Collin pulled back a fraction. He knew that he should say no. He avoided real relationships largely because they brought complications that he didn't want. Complications that got in the way of his career. He drew in a long, shaky breath and slid one hand up to Collin's neck. Career. That was the last thing he wanted to think about, given all that had just happened. All he wanted to do right now was a lot of not thinking.

"Okay," he found himself saying, and then there weren't any other words. Collin was breathing harder than he should have been for that kiss, as intense as it had been, and Oliver couldn't stop thinking back to his earlier injuries. He didn't move away--wasn't sure that he could, really--but just stroked his fingers over Collin's skin and tried to find a place of calm that he knew probably didn't exist at the moment.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 03:29 am UTC (link)
For a handful of interminable heartbeats, Collin was completely convinced that he had overstepped. It wasn't what they did, not really. A couple of times they had managed to fall asleep together, but that had only ever felt like mates. Hell, as far as he was concerned, they'd never really had a proper cuddle. Now he'd pushed too far, asked too much. And he would completely understand if Oliver said it wasn't a good idea.

Except that wasn't what Oliver said. He'd said okay, and the relief was so palpable that Collin could do nothing more than surge forward for another kiss. This one was tempered with calm, however, sweeter and more lingering, spurred by Oliver's fingers against his neck.

Eventually, he pulled away, though it wasn't for lack of oxygen this time. He didn't go far, and kept his hands in a loose hold on the other man's arms. "Gonna pack a few things. Meet you at yours in a few?"

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 03:57 am UTC (link)
For a few blissful seconds, Oliver did manage to think about nothing other than the feel of Collin's lips on his. Too soon, though, the reality of their situations intruded and he was faced with an inquiring expression a few inches away. Oliver hesitated again, for slightly different reasons this time. "We need a Muggle place. Maybe London?" It would be harder to track them down in London. It was late already, and he had a hard time seeing them leaving a hotel in the morning before the reporters were out in full force, determined to get an interview. "This is going to be all over the papers tomorrow, and you know they'll check all of the usual places first."

Oliver let his hands drift until they rested on the other wizard's shoulders. They were still standing close, but the simple transition in touches helped things feel a little bit more normal, not quite so desperate as they had a few minutes ago--or, if he was honest with himself, how that place in the back of his mind still felt.

"We shouldn't leave here together." Even if they apparated or took the Floo, they'd need to go through some central place out in the Muggle areas, and all it would take was one Quidditch fan seeing them to start the rumours. He hated the necessity of it, but they'd long since agreed on keeping private things private. Now was definitely not the time to change that.

He stood a little straighter, away from the door at his back, and Collin moved back in that same fluid motion. "But yes--meet me in mine and we can figure out it out, yeah?"

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 05:05 am UTC (link)
Everything Oliver was saying made sense, and it helped to penetrate some of the emotional sludge that had been gumming up his brain for hours. He nodded, already thinking furiously, ripping through memories of being in London with his parents during his school days, or occasionally meeting his brother or one of his sisters there, and trying to recall the various places he'd stayed. It wouldn't be that hard to find something, even given the time. And his parents insisted on him keeping a credit card for emergencies.

If this didn't qualify as an emergency, he didn't know what possibly could.

The hands on his shoulders were warm, comfortable weights, grounding. He couldn't help the tiny smile that tugged at his lips. A semi-hysterical laugh caught in his chest, but didn't manage to get any further. The fuck the press also never made it out, because what good would it have done? He had no great love for it right now, in fact, fully blamed it for pretty much starting this whole fucking mess, but Oliver was right on all counts. That was a dragon that was best left alone.

Before Oliver could leave, he couldn't help it. Had to do it. With Seeker deftness, his hand flicked out and he wound his fingers with Oliver's, and gave them a squeeze. "Yeah. Yeah, we will. All of it."

Together.

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 02:18 pm UTC (link)
Oliver looked back into Collin's eyes for another long moment, though he wasn't sure what that search was supposed to find. Then he nodded, pulled away, and left the flat before his thoughts and emotions could get any more jumbled.

As soon as he reached his own flat, the reality of what he'd done seemed to crash down around him. He hadn't quit--it wasn't all so bad as that--but he'd walked out on his team to make a statement. He groaned and swiped a hand over his eyes. That meant he was actually going to have to talk to the press. It did little good if it looked like he simply quit in a huff. He had a strict policy of never talking to reporters about anything other than Quidditch, and the thought of putting his personal thoughts out there for the world to read made him far more anxious than he might have expected.

Attempting to push all that to the back of his mind, Oliver made short work of packing a bag, sent his owl to George's, and then sat down on the couch. It only lasted about two seconds, and then he was on his feet again, pacing across the living room with quick strides.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 04:38 pm UTC (link)
It took a little while- maybe even a couple of minutes- for Collin to realize that he had been staring at his door, unmoving, ever since Oliver had closed it behind him. He had been a little shaken by the look in Oliver's eyes just before he'd gone, but hadn't been able to really process it. Finally, though, he'd managed to physically wrench himself away from the door, and set about summoning one of his traveling bags and set a charm to start moving his folded clothes into where it sat on his bed.

While that was going on, he moved to one of his windows and opened the small flap on the box that was secured there. In the only stroke of good luck he'd had all day, he found that the box was occupied. "Hey, Nike," he greeted the sparrow hawk quietly. The temperamental bird was another one of the things that his parents had insisted on after he'd come out of hiding. He rarely used her, but this was one of those cases where he was dizzyingly grateful to have her. The stare she gave him felt somehow critical, and he sighed even as he sat at his coffee table and dashed off a quick note. "I know, I know. I've fucked things up royally. Just take this to Mum and Dad's, and then stay there. I'll be along in a day or two."

He wasn't worried for the bird's accommodations at his parents' place; they'd put in an unobtrusive and eco-friendly roost in their garage ages ago. God, he was going to have to explain this to them. He could practically picture their looks of disappointment and concern, and it twisted painfully in his stomach.

Hunched over the table, a sudden sob spasmed painfully through his chest. Nike gave a small chittering cry and flew into the room to land in front of him. She bumped her head into his forearm, and then extended her leg. "Sorry." Collin sniffed and tied the note to it. "Rude of me to keep you waiting."

The bird twisted its head to give him a look that could only be described as reproving before flying out of the room and into the night. Collin grabbed his bag, summoned the few photos he kept around the flat- just in case- and then made his way to Oliver's flat. He knocked softly, and then called out quietly, "It's me."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 05:24 pm UTC (link)
"It's open," Oliver called back, and he waited for the click of the door both opening and then closing again before he looked up. The sight of Collin helped him draw some of that anxiety back under control, and his restless pacing ceased just in front of the other wizard. It was obvious that the anger and grief that had drive him to act on the Pitch had either faded or was deeply buried, and while Oliver didn't want that side of Collin to have a reason to resurface any time soon, he didn't much like this version, either. Despite their talk of figuring this out, something in Collin's expression spoke of defeat.

Whatever intentions he'd had for planning their next moves, he found himself returning to standing in front of Collin with one hand on the back of his neck. Maybe not so close, not so intimate, but his words were nonetheless infused with emotion that he probably would have been able to restrain on a good day. "We will figure this out." He opened his mouth to elaborate about humiliating the Wasps, turning the League around, making sure everyone saw Elena for who she'd been and not for her disease--or her death--but it all seemed pretty distant at the moment. Instead, he said, "You look like hell, mate. If I didn't know our healers kept their noses out of the political bullshit, I'd think someone left bruises just for sport."

Oliver stepped away before he could let too much of his reason be overwhelmed by everything else. There would be time for that once they settled. "Any ideas on where to go? There are a million hotels in Muggle London, so I suppose it doesn't much matter. The farther from...well, everywhere, the better." On that reminder, he crossed to the kitchen and opened one of the cupboards to pull out a pouch, then tucked it into his bag. He had no idea how much Muggle money was needed for a hotel room, but surely he had plenty. "You don't have to go back to your parents', you know. I'm sure George wouldn't mind another camper."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 06:25 pm UTC (link)
Collin was pretty sure that he should feel disconcerted at the level of relief he was experiencing just being back in Oliver's presence again, but maybe he was too overwhelmed with everything else to get to that particular emotion. And then Oliver's hand was on his neck again, and he wanted nothing more than to sag against him, or drag him over to the couch and devour him. It was exhausting, feeling so many warring things all at once, each of them battling for prominence from one pained breath to the next.

The reassurances were what Collin needed to hear, but he couldn't begin to be able to fathom how they were even supposed to start getting things back to rights. It was like he'd left all his supposed Ravenclaw cleverness out on the pitch with Zimmerman's broken and bloody face. At the mention of his own appearance, he couldn't help but huff out a small, wry laugh. "It's not like I've been able to sleep since the match," he admitted. "They kept me awake while they repaired my ribs and lungs. Suppose the bruising might've been an afterthought."

He was pretty damned proud of himself for not craning after Oliver's touch when the other man moved away again. A place had clicked in his mind on his way to Oliver's place, one of the hotels he'd met his brother Jon at when he'd been at a conference in London. "Yeah, there's one we can try, The International Hotel. It's on Canary Wharf, 'bout 45 minutes away from Kings Cross and Diagon. That might do us."

He'd been gripping the handles of the bag over his shoulder since he'd gotten to Oliver's room, but he hadn't realized just how hard until they loosened ever so slightly at the offer of an alternative place to stay. The tension he'd been holding in his shoulders eased by a hair. "I'd need to pop in, just for a bit, tell them what's happened before they hear whatever skewed version might start spinning through the press. But, yeah, yes, I'd really like that, if it's all right with your mate."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 07:35 pm UTC (link)
"It works for me," Oliver said with a nod, making a mental note of the hotel's name. He'd never heard of it, and the more random, the better. It was only one night, and by the time the reporters could research far enough to track them down, they'd be safely back in Diagon Alley.

He hated to intrude on George so suddenly, but he also knew that if there was anyone he could count on to have his back in something like this, it was George. He would just have to make sure they resolved things quickly enough that they didn't wear out their welcome. "It will be, but I sent the owl around to be sure he'll be home tomorrow." With the shop to run, it was more likely than not, but better to be safe than sorry. "We should probably wait until later in the day, once Diagon calms down a bit."

Oliver turned back to look at Collin and considered him silently for a moment. "You should go ahead and go. Check in, leave a key for me at the front desk. Take a nap," he added in a firm tone, though he smiled a bit at the words. Collin was famous for his enjoyment of a good nap, and the juxtaposition of that with the command was enough to draw him out of his dismal mood, if only a little. Collin needed the sleep, and Oliver needed some time to think. It was a win-win. It was a good thing something was today. "I want to talk to Valencia before I head out. We're up against the Tornados this week, and she's gonna need the pointers."

And it would space out their trips enough that no one would notice that they took the same path from outside the Leaky Cauldron. "I'll grab some food, too. I've been on the other end of the healing for injuries like that. You're gonna be starved once your body has time to catch up." He slung his bag over his shoulder, then, before he could second guess himself, crossed back to Collin and kissed him quickly. "I'm serious. Sleep."

Oliver nodded toward his Floo, heft his bag a little better onto his shoulder, then headed out the front door. He could leave from downstairs.

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 08:44 pm UTC (link)
Talking to his teammates had both taken longer and been more draining than he had expected, though he supposed he should have realised. It had taken all of five minutes to get around to them that Oliver was joining in on Collin's suspension, however unofficially. The barrage of exclamations, questions, and support was almost more than he could stand, but he used every last shred of determination he had to keep it together. He talked down more than one person who thought to join them in protest--which was heartening, if not necessarily helpful--and managed to assuage at least a few of the fears his reserve Keeper had in trying to step into his place. At least there was excitement in her tone, too. That he could appreciate, as it hadn't been so terribly long since he'd been in the reserves and looking for an opportunity to show what he could do.

It had been after dinner time already when this all started, and by the time he left the team flats it was considerably later. It was still plenty early enough to swing by the Leaky and order some food, though, and to also throw a couple of galleons to Tom and his staff to not remember he'd been there. He figured that was a group of people who understood the desire to avoid the press, given what had happened there almost four months ago.

Oliver hadn't thought he would be hungry, given the tightness in his chest and his unsettled stomach, but by the time he'd found one of those Muggle cars--the kind you could pay to take you anywhere--and settled in for the ride, the smell of the food started to get at him. He'd have to be careful that he didn't let the siren call of comfort food take over while he was temporarily unemployeed.

That thought was enough to wash away his hunger, and he leaned back against the seat and closed his eyes tight against the wave of fear and doubt and anger that he'd been holding in check. Everyone had been surprised, but no one had told him that he shouldn't make this particular stand. No one except Collin, that was, and his reaction at Oliver's insistance was still very vivid. For a moment, he allowed the memory of being pressed against the door in Collin's flat chase away all the rest, and for a moment, it worked. Wasn't that the whole purpose of their arrangement? They were friends, and they helped each other relieve stress. Oliver would have been hard pressed to describe a situation that needed stress release as much as this one did.

Somehow, that thought calmed him considerably, and he spent the rest of the trip gazing out the window at nighttime London's lights. The car stopped at the right place, he managed to pay the driver correctly, and his key was waiting at the front desk as expected. He got turned around once while trying to find the room, but finally found it and breathed a sigh of relief.

He unlocked the door and pushed it open as quietly as possible. It was dark in the room except for the soft glow of lights reflected on the river outside the window. Oliver eased the door closed behind him, put his bag down just inside, and then went into the room proper. Collin was asleep on the only bed in the room, stretched out in such a way that he took up most of the bed, and it brought a smile to Oliver's lips. He put the bag of food on the little end table, toed off his shoes, and then crawled onto the bed next to him. He was far too mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted to think much past his next few movements.

Oliver scooted up behind him and draped one arm across Collin's torso, just allowing himself to breathe in the comfort and calm for a few minutes. He kissed the back of Collin's neck, waiting for the other to move enough to indicate he was starting to wake before softly saying, "There's food."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 09:30 pm UTC (link)
Getting to London hadn't been difficult at all, nor had getting the taxi a few blocks away from the Leaky- where he'd seen no one other than as he'd made his way through the common room and outside- or finding the hotel and securing a room. No, the problem came as soon as he'd dropped his bag on the chair at the far side of the room and then flopped, face first, on the bed. Collin had barely managed to toe his shoes off and shrug off his shirt when his eyes shut on their own accord.

But sleep was aggravatingly elusive. Zimmerman's words were taunting him, and his blood was everywhere, and the ground was as hard as it was unforgiving. It all just roiled through his brain, and began to bleed through the dreams that were starting to form. He kept jerking himself awake every time he hit the pitch, and groaned his frustration as he curled tightly into himself. At some point, however, he finally managed it. He was still pretty far under when he slowly became aware of a body pressed against his back, and an arm over his stomach.

He smiled faintly at the kiss, and moved his hand down to cover Oliver's. "You're a fucking saint," he mumbled against one of the pillows. "Church canon an' everything."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 09:54 pm UTC (link)
Oliver laughed softly at the teasing compliment, but he didn't shift his position except to wind his fingers through Collin's. It was warm and dark, and other than the tempting smell of chips coming from a few feet away, he had very little motivation to move. "Glad to see you took my commands seriously, even if the state of these sheets means that you didn't necessarily get good sleep." He paused, then added, "Feeling any better?"

The question was intended for the physical wounds, but he didn't clarify. If Collin felt up to talking about the rest, then Oliver wasn't going to dissuade him.

After a short internal debate, he said, "The team has your back. Not that I doubted it, but more than one of them made me promise I'd tell you." He supposed it was natural to assume that Oliver would see Collin, but it did make him wonder whether anyone else had picked up on the beyond-friendly parts of their friendship. Elena had known, but he thought she'd been the only one. Oddly, it didn't make him uncomfortable. As prickly and stony and they could be, the Falcons were family.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-06 10:55 pm UTC (link)
A meaningful groan left him when Oliver mentioned the sheets. His slowly waking brain was hoping he'd missed that detail, but that just wasn't in the cards. He managed to shrug his shoulder, but it was mostly a reticent gesture. Better? Was he?

"Still hurts," he muttered, shutting his eyes tight. "More than I thought. Shouldn've done it. Should've taken the bludger and just flown away. But it was Elena, and I just fucking... I don' even know where it came from. An' I can't even say if I wouldn' do it again, if it happened all over. Now it's all bollocksed and--" He went quiet for long enough for Oliver to tell him about the Falcons' solidarity, and he just couldn't take it.

His eyes were stinging as he turned in Oliver's hold, so that he was facing him, and he felt wetness fall across the bridge of his nose. Collin reached up for Oliver's face, holding it. "I can't," he gasped, shuddered with the weight of it all. "If this all goes south, if they kick me out of the league for good, you have to go back. I know this is for your principles, and I get it, I do. But I will never forgive myself if you don't go back. The Falcons need you. You have to promise, please."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-06 11:32 pm UTC (link)
Oliver rested his forehead against Collin's shoulder as the wizard started talking about what had happened. Oliver had picked up on enough from his place on the pitch, the chatter of the other players, and the talk afterward to piece things together, but that was nothing compared to the raw emotion he could feel in Collin's telling of it. The Falcons were a close-knit group, but Elena had been special--tough and thorny just like the rest of them, but she'd had a way with people. He'd known that Collin had taken her death hard, but obviously he hadn't realised quite how hard until today. Oliver stroked his fingers over Collin's, but otherwise he didn't comment. Sometimes it was just about getting it out.

When Collin turned over to look at him, he was momentarily frozen by the intensity of it. He put a hand on Collin's arm as if it would help steady both of them. "Collin--" He started to say that none of that mattered, that he would see this through because couldn't play for a League that was so myopic, but the words died on his tongue, because they were lies. The truth was that he couldn't imagine not playing, and for the first time, he genuinely hated that his career was more important to him than literally everything else in his life.

He breathed in slowly and let it out in a shudder. "I promise. It's not going to happen--I won't let it happen--but if it helps, then I promise." He swiped his thumb briefly over Collin's wet cheek, then slid his hand to the back of his head, threading his fingers through Collin's hair. He hated seeing Collin like this. Hated it. "You never know," he said, attempting levity. "They might end up well shot of us both, and we can move to the European Conference. You can knock Krum off his high horse. The Quafflepunchers could use a talent upgrade." Oliver brushed a kiss over Collin's lips. "And you'd look smashing in pink, you know."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-07 01:01 am UTC (link)
"Too fucking right I would," Collin said on the back of a reluctant laugh, because Oliver could always seem to do that. And now that he'd given his promise, Collin felt some of the tightness in his chest uncoil. The relief was making him feel practically giddy. He let out a small, pleased sound as Oliver's fingers moved through his hair, and burrowed in against his shoulder. "On both counts. I've been wanting to get my hands on Krum since the Worlds." His face twisted a bit at his choice of wording, and he darted upward to steal another kiss. "'Course, right now, there's quite another person I'd rather get my hands on."

The smell of food seemed to hit him all at once, and he sat upright very suddenly, searching the room for the source. He had to lean over Oliver to grab his wand from one of the bedside tables, nearly rolling on top of him in his enthusiasm, and then summoned the bag of food over to settle between them. He fixed Oliver with an open and very fond smile. "You really are the bloody best, Wood."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-07 01:44 am UTC (link)
Oliver was glad that his attempt at humour had at least partially hit the mark, well enough that he was caught off guard at Collin's unintended innuendo. He snorted a laugh, louder than he'd intended, that was only cut off by Collin sneaking in for another kiss. "Tall, dark, bushy eyebrows?" He feigned serious consideration for a second before laughing again. "No, you're right. Not quite my type, either."

He rolled to his back as Collin sat up, watching the other wizard summon the food over to the bed. There was still a lot ahead of them to handle, and a lot of what had happened already to sort through, and he was bloody starving now that the food was in front of him--but for a brief second, it only mattered that Collin was smiling at him. Really smiling. Oliver couldn't resist smiling back, answering the compliment by a brief touch of the hand as he sat up.

Oliver started pulling containers from the bag, pausing only to cast a quick charm on the foot of the bed to keep the food from bouncing and sliding too much. "There's a selection. Wasn't sure what you'd be in the mood for." He'd probably gone overboard for two people, but that was sort of the norm whenever he was in charge of food for parties, and this wasn't so different. "I figure whatever's left we can put under a cooling charm and save for tomorrow. No reason to head out anytime early, so."

He stole a glance sideways as he grabbed one of the containers--fish and chips, the scent told him--and scooted back to lean against the head of the bed. "Think I can count this as a proper holiday?" he asked, popping a piece of fish into his mouth. It was just hot enough to still be crisp, but not so much that it burned his mouth, which was exactly why the Leaky Cauldron was bloody brilliant, even if the menu selection was limited. "Maybe that's what I'll tell Mum. She doesn't read anything in the Prophet other than the Society section, anyway."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-07 02:53 am UTC (link)
Collin gaped a little at all the food, but he shouldn't have been very surprised. He wasn't, once he really stopped to consider the source. Instead of needling Oliver, however, he simply followed his nose to a container that housed- ah-ha! he was right!- shepherd's pie. He was practically drooling as he rooted around for utensils, found them, and then sat cross-legged just next to Oliver, close enough that his legs were firmly pressed against the other man's thigh. The moan he let out on first bite was absolutely indecent, and his eyes rolled toward the ceiling. When he looked back, he was smiling contentedly. "Maybe we can save some for George, too. Bit of a thanks-for-letting-us-crash-at-yours gift."

A few further bites, perhaps slightly less enthusiastic than the first- but no less grateful, allowed him the chance to ruminate on Oliver's question. "Well," he said, pausing from his food inhalation, "given that in five seasons I've never seen you take a proper holiday, I think it can and you could." He grinned at a sudden thought. "We could go to the continent for a couple of weeks, really put the fear of Circe into the League. Once word gets out, honestly, I won't be surprised if we start getting seriously courted. Like you said earlier- League's top Keeper, three years running."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-10 11:37 pm UTC (link)
"It is a proven fact that Weasleys like to eat. Assuming we leave anything for him," he added with a chuckle, resting his free hand on Collin's knee. It seemed that the bubble of tension had finally burst, because the laughing came easier, and he was content for the moment with the food and the company. More so the company. "It's a good idea, though. We can always stop on the way and grab dinner. Something from London proper that he doesn't have often."

Oliver paused with a chip halfway to his mouth, at first caught by the we in that statement—and the fact that he really liked the sound of a holiday with Collin—and then by the thought that there was real possibility in the idea of the European League, despite the fact that he'd brought it up in jest. And if not in the League itself, then what it represented—leverage. "I should have spoken up weeks ago," he said, his tone matter-of-fact. There was guilt in there, too, but for now he could look at the situation with some objectivity. "Beyond supporting the team's refusal to follow the ruling. It just" —he gave a sheepish little shrug— "never occurred to me to use my name to do anything about it." He took a bit and chewed thoughtfully. "But maybe that's what I should do."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-11 02:17 am UTC (link)
"Seems a good bloke," he observed, smiling faintly down at where the warmth of Oliver's hand was penetrating the fabric covering his knee. Collin felt a sudden and misplaced flash of irritation at the offending garment, wishing it wasn't there at all, and then he almost laughed at how stupid the thought had been. Instead, he nodded. He'd only met George the once, then run into him again in Diagon a short time later, though then they'd done nothing more than exchange a few pleasantries. Never really had the pleasure of being at school with a Weasley, though, not in any way to have any impression of the family other than what he'd gleaned from their involvement in the War. "Yeah, we should do that. There's a few muggle places around that the fam have dragged me to that were pretty amazing."

He watched closely as Oliver paused, and wondered for a moment if he'd misspoken. Collin was just about to start backpedalling when Oliver began voicing his apparent thoughts. A tiny frown pulled at his mouth, and he set his food to one side. He took Oliver's hand, threading their fingers together, then raised it and kissed his knuckles before lowering them again. Huffing out a sigh, Collin shook his head. "And here's me, the right bastard who's put you in the position in the first place," he said, though it was self-deprecating. He managed a smile down at Oliver. "'Spose there's worse ways to use one's celebrity, eh?"

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-11 02:48 am UTC (link)
"It shouldn't have taken this," Oliver said firmly. As much as he wished he could keep the humorous tone they'd found, this felt important. It all seemed so big and obvious now that they had started talking about it, and he didn't want to neglect to follow the thoughts and see where they led. "I'm just not quite sure what to do with the attention now that it's come my way. Our way." He smiled up at Collin with a hint of tease to it. "You've got quite a set of fans yourself, you know. I think you might be surprised at just how many people agree with us."

He put his food on the side table. He looked back at Collin for a long second before tugging on his hand and pulling him closer, so that he unwound from his seating position and ended up next to Oliver. "You didn't do anything that the rest of us wouldn't have done in your place. Zimmerman and his flunkies knew exactly where to hit to get a reaction, and they did just that." He brushed his fingertips through the hair at Collin's temples. "The more I think about it, the more I think we have a real shot to turn this in our favour. If they can use the media attention, why can't we?"

Oliver closed the last bit of space between them and kissed Collin softly, hoping that would help reassure the other wizard if his words did not. "I've never back down from a fight before. Are you with me?"

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-12 09:30 pm UTC (link)
At the mention of his "fans", Collin quietly scoffed and rolled his eyes. He never put much stock in his own popularity, figured whatever fame he might have was only because of his association with the Falcons in the first place. "We'll have to be smart about it, of course. Get in front of whatever shite the League decides to spin on it. Need to issue a statement, and all that." He froze, his eyes going wide, gaze distant and a little horrified. "Fuck. I never owled Caterina. Oh, shite, she's gonna have my bollocks for sure." His agent was the best in the League, but could be terrifying in the right circumstances. This definitely qualified as the right circumstances. "I'm definitely in for a Howler. Maybe twelve. Fucking hell. I can't believe I forgot."

His flash of anticipatory misery was successfully interrupted before it could spiral into anything solid or deeply rooted when Oliver pulled him down so they were now side-by-side. Collin couldn't help but smile warmly as the other man offered him comfort in the best possible way, demonstrative not only by his words, but by his actions as well. He shivered a little when Oliver kissed him, and tried to ignore the tightness in his throat. Reaching down, he pushed Oliver's shirt up enough to splay his hands across his stomach. He leaned in to kiss him again, and then nodded. "Yeah. Yes. I'm always with you. 'Til the very end. No matter what happens."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-12 10:35 pm UTC (link)
It was Oliver's turn to roll his eyes, though he did laugh a little at Collin's look of horror—mostly because he knew Caterina, and knew that Collin was probably right at her reaction. "Nah, this is too big for a Howler. I'm pretty sure that as soon as your location is public, she's going to be in your face herself." He grinned at the tease in that statement, despite the fact that it was probably the truth, too. Oliver had split with his first agent when the war had interrupted his career and never bothered to get another one, but this was one of those situations when he could see the advantage of having one. "But she knows people. And I know a few people. If we're going to have any chance of anticipating the next spin, having the right allies will be key. Assuming you can talk Caterina down, anyway," he added, more teasing than serious now.

For one very vivid moment, Oliver was aware that Collin's reponse—and the warm hand on his stomach—spoke of much more than just their half-plan to outwit the idiots in the League. The sensation of it was far more intense he might have expected, if he'd been prepared at all for it—and he wasn't. He breathed in deeply as he leaned his forehead against Collin's, but as he breathed out, the shock of it faded somewhat. Why should Collin's loyalty faze him? He ignored the part of his brain that tried to tell him that it wasn't Collin that surprised him as much as his own response to the statement. Instead, he pulled the other man closer and kissed him again, then dragged his lips across Collin's jawline and up to his ear. "Good," he said, and his voice came out far huskier than it had been only a second ago. "Not sure I'd like not having you around."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-13 12:35 am UTC (link)
The lips on his skin, the voice in his ear-- Collin gave a full body shudder. Any thought of the traumatic events of the day had all but vanished, because now there was just him and Oliver, in a muggle hotel room, so very far from the world that seemed to be crashing down around their ears on all sides. The only thing he cared to remember was the fire that had burned through him when Oliver had stood by him so resolutely a few hours earlier. It had ignited in him again, but that was so easy to do when he was around Oliver.

He usually had much more restraint, but, really, fuck that.

"fuck" he breathed against Oliver's throat, his hand moving higher to the center of the other wizard's chest. There was nothing for it, then, nothing else to be done. He pushed against Oliver gently, but insistently, until he was on his back again and Connor was above him, straddling his hips. He grinned down at Oliver, and tugged at his shirt. "Not really planning on going anywhere else any time soon. And you're wearing too many clothes. Come to think of it, so am I."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-13 01:26 am UTC (link)
Oliver nipped at Collin's throat and felt a pounding heartbeat under his lips as he moved with the prodding of the other man's hands, making an unconscious noise of protest as Collin pulled away to sit up. Things didn't usually start this way for them, and he couldn't say he minded having that moment of enjoying the view. He'd always appreciated Collin's lithe, muscled frame, and the way he carried himself that screamed Seeker in a way that was incredibly attractive. His hair was still tousled, and while Oliver didn't like thinking of the inadequate sleep that had caused it, he did like thinking of how soon he'd be digging his hands back into it.

He couldn't resist briefly tracing Collin's abdomen with his hands before he obliged and sat up just enough to pull off his own shirt, tossing it haphazardly to one side. As he settled back down on the bed, though, a bit of light from outside caught Collin's side just right, highlighting one of the bruises. Oliver gingerly rested his hand there, swiping his thumb over the skin. "This scared the shit out of me," he admitted quietly, watching the place where his hand touched rather than the other's face. He rested his other hand on Collin's thigh. "Are you sure you're healed up enough?" As much as he wanted to be close right now—which, admittedly, was a lot—he hated the thought of hurting him further.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-13 02:30 am UTC (link)
Collin caught his lip with his teeth, face heating under Oliver's gaze, and then even more with the feel of his hands on his stomach. A small moan left him, but it quickly became a low hum of appreciation as Oliver divested himself of at least one article of clothing. As much as Oliver seemed to be admiring him, he was also a captive audience of the man beneath him. Where he was tall and wiry, Oliver was solid, had the kind of arms, the kind of body that he had to actively keep himself from being constantly distracted by- especially now that he got to see him like he was now.

But then the touch changed, and Collin glance down his own body to the spot that Oliver seemed to be unable to tear his gaze away from, and Collin stilled. He had to think about it, listen to his own body. The pain had already become background noise, and it didn't hurt to breathe nearly as much as it had before. He might only have been able to snatch a few minutes of sleep before Oliver had arrived, but it seemed to have done the trick. Except the other wizard's question brought him up short. Had it really? Or was he just willing to be a bit stupid right now.

Collin reached down and covered Oliver's hand with his own. "Sorry," he murmured. "I wasn't thinking in the slightest when it all went down." He let out a humorless chuckle, giving a rueful smile with a small shake of his head. "Maybe we take it slow? Go easy on me? I just... don't stop. Please."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-13 03:33 am UTC (link)
"I know." Oliver understood why he'd reacted the way he had, and he hadn't been lying when he said that the rest of them would probably have acted much the same way. It didn't make it any easier to see. There was a part of him, however overwhelmed at the moment, that wanted to suggest they curl up and get some rest. It would be the healthiest thing, physically. Oliver wasn't so sure it would be best for other reasons, though, especially after Collin's impassioned request earlier.

So taking it slow? That he could do.

"Me? Go easy on you?" He raised a teasing eyebrow, and one side of his mouth quirked up. "I'm pretty sure you've got me at your mercy here, Haussler." He laughed throatily, letting his hands drift to Collin's hips. Despite his playful words, his grip was possessive. "The question is what you're going to do now that you've got me."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-13 08:52 pm UTC (link)
Wearing a smile that could only be categorized as the Devil's Own, Collin rolled the hips beneath Oliver's hands down, slow and dirty. "Seems like the possibilities are endless," he breathed out on the end of a groan. "The real question is where to start? I mean, there's here-" he leaned down, until his arms were bracketing either side of Oliver's head, and kissed him hard before pulling back a short distance- "or here-" this was a nip at his collarbone, and then a languid lick meant to soothe- "or here."

The last was Collin reaching down between them to palm Oliver through his jeans. The angle was awkward, though, and the heretofore persistent but ignorable pain in his sides decided to choose that moment to spike. He bit his lip in an effort to keep from wincing, but couldn't help the small gasp he let out against Oliver's chest. Sitting up again, he lifted himself, but it was only to undo the other man's pants and unzip them- and maybe give himself some literal breathing room. "Still too many clothes."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-14 12:38 am UTC (link)
It was no chore to let himself be pulled in by Collin's touch, spurred by both that devilish smile and the desire to lose himself in that pleasurable fog for awhile. He tugged at Collin's hips and encouraged the other man's movements even as he closed his eyes and let himself enjoy those lips teasing at what was to come. He moaned at the unexpected touch of Collin's hand, and he had started to lift up enough to pull the man in for another kiss when the hitch in Collin's breath caught his attention.

Oliver put a hand out to still Collin's attention to his jeans, then pulled himself to a sitting position, adjusting so that Collin sat astride his lap. He met Collin's gaze for a moment and traced his side again with that same gentle touch, then matched it with a kiss. Oliver was careful not to pull at his torso too much as he wound one hand through Collin's hair, deepening the kiss.

"Let me," he said in a breath between kisses, and with his free hand he managed the button of Collin's jeans. Then slowly, so that Collin could follow the movement rather than flopping painfully, Oliver rolled so that Collin could lay back on the other side of the bed. Kneeling with one knee between the other man's legs, Oliver bent to kiss one of the bruises before raising up enough to finish pulling off his jeans. They joined his shirt somewhere in the floor. "Better?" he asked as he lowered himself face-to-face with Collin again, touching, but supporting his own weight. He worked at Collin's zip as he went in for another kiss, then pushed at the waistband of his jeans.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-15 01:43 am UTC (link)
Was it possible to die from gentleness? Collin thought it much more likely that it would be from mortification. For the precious seconds that it took for Oliver to turn them, in which he clung to the other man like he was the only broom standing between him and a ten thousand foot drop, he felt alternately grateful and so fucking frustrated at himself for not being able to hide his pain better. Of course, the latter was met with internal derision, because that was just stupid. The whole point of this was to serve as a good distraction to one another, and not to injure himself further.

Anytime Oliver kissed one of his bruises, however, Collin felt an ache deep inside that had nothing to do pain. He groaned and shivered at each tender caress. Part of him wanted to beg Oliver to stop, because he didn't deserve it. He'd been so stupid, and here was Oliver, trying to protect him (like always), trying to ease his mind and body. Honestly, Collin just wanted to cry, but he shut that down with vicious finality. No. He was not going to fuck this up. This was what he wanted: Oliver's body above him, gorgeous in the London lights coming in from the window. "Yeah. Yes," he said on a sigh, running his hands up and down Oliver's sides. "So much better."

He managed to raise his hips to accommodate the removal of the rest of his clothes, sighing, as it brought him chest to chest with Oliver for several moments. He kicked them off the rest of the way a little impatiently, until they fell off the foot of the bed. And then he was kissing every part of Oliver he could reach with lips, tongue and teeth: chest, shoulder, neck, mouth, the shell of his ear. His hands roved over the other man's back, the calm gentleness a short reprieve in Collin's need to feel something other than creeping horror and bone-deep anxiety.

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-08-19 11:23 am UTC (link)
Oliver wasn't sure if it was only Collin's injury, or something else, but much of his playfulness vanished as he shifted his weight to one arm to free one of his hands to stroke Collin's newly-exposed skin. The way Collin's body moved under his was near torture—such amazing torture—mollified only by the way Collin's mouth seemed to blaze a heated path everywhere he could reach, not to mention the man's hands on his back. At least it chased away the worry for now, or twisted it into an intense attention toward replacing Collin's pain with something far better.

He snaked one hand between them for a touch that was rather tentative, though only in an effort to keep himself from ploughing forward at breakneck speed. A part of him wanted that, but he knew coming down from this high might be less satisfying than usual. Or no, not less satisfying—because being with Collin was always that—but it was simply farther to fall to reach the place they'd been only a few minutes ago. So while he took full advantage of Collin's arousal and relatively vulnerable position under him, it was with deliberation and a slow, steady movement of hand and body.

Though Merlin knew how he managed it, given how keyed up he was himself. He groaned into the crook of Collin's neck as he nipped at the skin there, a counterpoint to the other, softer touches.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-08-19 06:35 pm UTC (link)
Collin hummed his pleasure against Oliver's skin as the other man wrapped his fingers him in a touch that was just shy of too soft. He huffed through the sensation, hips chasing after it, but they were small, jerky movements, not terribly coordinated. His kisses became more desperate, open-mouthed and messy, lips dragging across skin, and fingers digging into Oliver's shoulders and sides.

He wanted to moan words, sharp invectives to let Oliver know what kind of sweet torment this was, but they wouldn't come. He could barely make a sound, though the nip against his chest caused a small cry to startle out of him, and he arched up against him. "O-Oliver..."

Reaching down, he slid his hand around Oliver, though his movements, his touch had almost none of the gentleness that the other man was showing. His eyes, heretofore shut to try to amplify the sensations going through him, opened and settled on Oliver's face, intense and intent. He moved his other hand up Oliver's side, along his chest, his neck, and then pressed it against the side of his face. He chewed his lip for a moment, torn.

Why did tonight, right now, feel so different? It was always so easy between them, simple. Just a couple of blokes letting off steam. "Oliver," he tried again, on the back of a sigh and a kiss that was at complete odds to what his other hand was doing, how it moved against him. They joked, made playful demands, spoke often of wants, desires, but never really- "I need you inside of me."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-02 01:21 am UTC (link)
Oliver's gaze flicked from Collin's eyes, down to the fascinating way he worried his lip between his teeth, and then back to his eyes. Despite the intensity of the other man's touch, it was Collin's expression that held him captive. It didn't matter how much he tried to tell himself that they were simply taking advantage of their arrangement to take distraction and comfort where they could; this wasn't distraction, nor was it simple. He didn't need Collin's words for that to finally sink in. The thing he didn't know was whether this had always been there beneath the surface, or if it was only the circumstances bringing it out in them.

It was with all of that behind it that Oliver pulled his lips back up to Collin's and kissed him hard. If he hadn't already been out of breath, he was drawing air in near-gasps when he pulled back a fraction, all thoughts of Collin's injuries pushed so far in the back of his mind that they were almost non-existent. "Yes," he managed between breaths, and he reluctantly drew his hand away from Collin's soft skin to fumble for his wand, which he was fairly sure he'd managed to get onto the bedside table. "Collin, I—"

His fingers found his wand, and other words were chased away as he murmured the spells they needed for safety and comfort. He was surprised he even remembered them, given how long it had been since he'd been with anyone like this. But then, they were the sorts of spells that were cast during moments that it was impossible to think—and this certainly fit the bill. He put his wand aside again and shifted his body slightly, guiding Collin to shift as well, but without moving away from him any more than was necessary. Raising his hand, he stroked Collin's cheek, studying the other man's eyes for a moment. It wasn't hesitation. It was...he didn't know. Oliver only knew he needed that connection as he slowly pushed inside him.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-09-03 04:13 am UTC (link)
There was a second- brief, but agonizing- where Collin wasn’t sure if he had overstepped, but then there was Oliver, kissing away that doubt with a passion that felt like certainty. Even so, Oliver's yes came as a bit of a relief, a concrete acknowledgment that the other man wanted this, wanted him too. The cutoff Collin, I-, however, burned through him, made him want to know what it was that Oliver was going to say, wondered if it might be hesitation or reluctance.

He watched the other man closely, then tracked his movements as Oliver fumbled for, and then grabbed his wand. For just a moment, Collin was genuinely confused, but it dawned on him an instant later, and he forced himself to relax, knowing what those murmured words would do to him. It was by no means his first time doing this, though he usually preferred the other way around, but it had been a few years since he’d done either. What he wasn’t prepared for, however, was how it would feel when Oliver did it. A faint tremor hummed along his nerve endings, shaking his limbs minutely.

A part of him hoped Oliver wouldn’t notice as he moved them into a more comfortable position, but the errant thought was chased away when the other man’s hand found the side of his face. Collin leaned into it, unabashed and unashamed, but didn’t break his gaze from Oliver’s face; something was happening between them, he could sense it, but couldn’t, refused, to name it. This wasn’t just physical. It was so much more than that. He gave a tiny nod, one hand coming up to cover the one on his cheek, the other tracing up Oliver’s arm and stopping at his shoulder.

As gentle and slow as Oliver was being, there was still a not inconsiderable amount of discomfort to contend with. Tearing his gaze away, Collin pushed his head back against the plush hotel pillows, breath coming in short, shallow gasps and the muscles in his neck going taut. He drew his legs up so that they wrapped around Oliver’s hips, shaking with the sensations roiling through his body. The smallest of sounds pushed out of him every few breaths, until Oliver stopped moving, now flush against him.

He was already so close, even with just this, but he had more self-control that that, dammit. His breathing evened out, and Collin managed to look up at Oliver again, offering him a shaky grin. He pressed his heels into the back of the other man’s thighs, which- as happy accident would have it- also served to push him deeper. A long groan left him at that, but he managed to summon the reserves of his brain power to say in a remarkably steady voice, “Gonna need you to move, mate."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-03 09:50 pm UTC (link)
Oliver laughed roughly at the near-command, winding his fingers into Collin's hair just to have something else to concentrate on other than the near perfection of that moment. "Working on it," he said, still laughing as he pressed his face into that spot on Collin's neck just below his jaw. He dragged his lips across the skin, not quite nipping as he tested his control and started to move.

"Gods, Collin," he said on the backside of a moan as the sensations threatened to overwhelm him. It was all he could do to keep his movements steady and not give in to the desire to take all that Collin could offer him. The legs around him pulled him in again and again with satisfying strength, bringing to mind Collin's superb form on a broom, and that drove him onward even harder.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-09-04 05:40 pm UTC (link)
Oliver’s hand moving to his hair- and, God, he didn’t want to admit what that did to him- freed his own to do what he really wanted to do, which was to finally get both hands on the expanse of the other wizard’s well-muscled back. Whatever other control Collin managed to keep evidently did not extend to his fingers, as they glided, dug and pulled against Oliver’s skin. Distantly, he hoped he wasn’t leaving bruises, but it was difficult to feel sensible under the current circumstances.

He huffed out his own breathless laugh in answer to Oliver’s that quickly became a moan as the other man began to move in earnest. The angle of their bodies pushed him against Oliver’s stomach with each thrust. A low, broken sound stuttered out from the back of his throat, and he squeezed his eyes shut tight until he saw stars.

“O-Oliver,” he gasped, opening them again, wide and staring into the other man’s face. Saying his name was a mistake, seemed to have broken the carefully constructed dam that blocked his words from his mouth. “Fuck… fuck, ‘m so fucking close. What the fuck are you doing to me? Don’t stop. Don’t ever fucking stop."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-04 06:53 pm UTC (link)
"I don't know," Oliver gasped, unable to think clearly enough to attempt saying something clever, or at least something less revealing. The truth was that he didn't know what he was doing, to Collin or to himself. His emotions thrummed in a jumbled tune with his body, and they both were building to levels he wouldn't have thought possible. His eyes were locked with Collin's as he said, "But me too. Gods, me too."

Any further words he might have said were swallowed by the rhythm of his breathing quickly turning into far more primal sounds as Collin's hands—Merlin, Collin's everything—took away all ability to control himself. He couldn't bring himself to mind as it belated occurred to him in that haze that he'd meant his statement as something other than agreement with how close he was. Though that was certainly true, too, and he chose to focus on that rather than the amorphous sense of more that tempered the stroke of his fingers through Collin's hair and the kiss that he pressed on the other man's lips when that gaze finally became more than he could handle.

Oliver managed to lean his weight on the arm that curled under Collin's head, freeing the other to slide down his partner's body with purpose, stopping to grip his hip and increase the precision of their movements. It was only a subtle change, but there was something about that tiny shift that brought him right to the edge in only a few thrusts. "I can't—" he started, and then had to stop talking to concentrate on holding out just a little longer. He wanted to stay in this moment forever, but instead he found himself unable to hold back a cry as he came, pulling Collin to him as if the man might disappear.

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[info]bl_collin
2017-09-04 09:04 pm UTC (link)
Collin was losing himself in Oliver, in his body, in the sounds he was making, the way his fingers tugged at his hair. He gazed at him avidly, drinking in every piece he could, only breaking it when Oliver leaned in to kiss him again. He gently bit at Oliver’s lower lip, legs trembling as Oliver moved his hand down his body.

And then he was there, and Collin felt a sob rip from his chest. The pleasure was intense, just skating the knife’s edge of pain. He couldn’t string thoughts together long enough to say anything sensible, so his mouth only worked around choked sounds. He wasn’t sure how much more he could take. He was finally beginning to understand the phrase la petite mort.

It was Oliver’s cry that cut through to his conscious mind, and he dragged the other wizard’s face to his, capturing the last of his gasps with his mouth. The rhythm of their hips began to slow, but Collin still chased his own end. In seconds, almost crushed against Oliver, he had tipped into that delicious cresting wave that left him with a punched-out grunt. He shuddered in Oliver’s arms, his own gripped tightly around the other man’s back.

“Fuck,” he murmured against Oliver’s neck, pressing slow, loose kisses there once he’d regained his breath. “Why haven’t we done that sooner?"

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-04 11:06 pm UTC (link)
"No idea," Oliver said, though it wasn't exactly true. They'd never done this because their relationship had always been friendly and casual, and this was anything but casual. What he didn't know was why that thought sent a part of his brain into a panic state, and the rest of it into contented silence. For now, the relaxed part of his brain won out, and he lazily stroked the back of Collin's neck and made pleased little noises as Collin's lips brushed over his neck. After a moment, he remembered Collin's injury and attempted to support at least a bit of his own weight again, but he couldn't bring himself to roll away just yet. "All right?"

He pulled their lips back together again before Collin had a chance to answer, and for a few minutes he was caught up in that kiss, which he deepened enough to satisfy his lingering desire, but kept slow enough to let their breathing continue to recover. He shivered, belatedly struck by the continued intimacy of it, but also by the possibility that this would all disappear once they left this bed. Was it possible that this was a fluke brought on by the stress of today's events? Why did that idea feel like such a punch in the gut?

Oliver pulled back just enough to take in Collin's face, taking a deep breath and releasing it slowly before saying, "We should have. This is...." He nuzzled Collin's cheek, unable to decide on the right words for a moment. Finally, he settled for kissing his jaw and saying softly, "I want this. With you."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-09-05 12:06 am UTC (link)
It was more amusing than anything else that any reply that Collin might have given to Oliver's statements and questions were being chased away by the other wizard's greedy mouth. Collin couldn't even begin to bring himself to mind. He smiled into the kiss, tracing lazy, listless patterns around Oliver's back and shoulders. It was easy- perhaps a little too much so- to forget anything outside of them in this bed right at this moment, but there was an ache in his sides that was making itself known again. Bastard body.

And then, just like that, Oliver's words made him forget it all over again. He felt breathless in a way that had absolutely nothing to do with his injuries or what they had just done- no, that wasn't right. It had everything to do with what they'd just done. He'd thought about it, sure, entertained the notion more than once, but he'd never been sure about Oliver's side of things. Collin took Oliver's face in his hands, pulling it up so that he could look him in the face. "God, me too," he admitted in an almost-whisper. "For a while now."

He pushed out a sigh, his head falling back. "But we can't make it public, can we. Not until after everything blows over. Maybe not even then." Collin glanced up at Oliver, and chewed his lip. "I know how much you value you your privacy, and I respect that. I don't want to compromise anything... else for you."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-05 12:59 am UTC (link)
Oliver drew in another breath, this one sharper than the last, as Collin not-quite forced Oliver to look into his eyes again. Oliver wasn't shy, and he was rarely hesitant to communicate what he wanted in all areas of his life, but this was more complicated than that—more delicate somehow, though Collin himself was anything but, injuries or not. For a while now. Had he missed it because he wasn't looking for it, or because he was trying to avoid seeing it? He'd thought they were content with the not-quite relationship they'd carved out. Oliver had been content. But maybe it was possible to be better than content.

As Collin continued, though, some of that earlier tightness returned to his chest. The truth was that things in the world outside this room were a lot more complicated. "No more of that. I won't have you feeling guilty for my choices." Oliver kissed him firmly, staying close for longer than was strictly necessary, memorising the feeling of it, before finally rolling to one side to rest on the bed. One leg stayed intertwined with Collin's, and he slid his hand lightly across the man's abdomen before leaving it there, fingers curled around his waist.

"I can't say it won't be complicated," Oliver admitted, rather reluctantly, after a long silence. "We're going to have an uphill battle with the press as it is. If they get wind of this, start spinning things to look like it's about us being lovers instead of what it's really about—" The sad part was that this was about Collin. If today hadn't happened, how long would it have been before Oliver realised he should have spoken up already about the League's discrimination? Half of the things the paper might say would probably be true, and he hated admitting that to himself. It made him that much more determined to force change if he could.

"It's not that I wouldn't want anyone to know about you." Oliver hadn't been open with his friends and family about his relationships, but he hadn't tried to cover it up, either. He'd always preferred silence and discretion over lies, but if he and Collin really— Oliver let out a sudden, shaky laugh and pressed his face into the crook of Collin's neck. A relationship. That's what they were talking about, not just shagging. Neither of them had said it in so many words, but he had no doubt that was what Collin meant, and that whether he'd intended it in his words or not, it was what he wanted. "My mum is going to love you, you know." The words were teasing, but he wasn't able to hold that level of lightness as he continued. The topic felt too important for that. "George will figure it out about two seconds after seeing us in the same room, I think. The girls might be a little slower, but they're not stupid." The more he thought about it, the more he wanted to tell them. Get it out in the open so he didn't have to think about it.

No, it was more than that. He didn't want this to feel like a dirty secret, because that's not what Collin was. They were mates...and they were something indefinably more. What was wrong with wanting his friends and family to know and be happy for him?

"Can we do...not public-public, but something in between? I don't want to hide you."

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[info]bl_collin
2017-09-06 12:14 am UTC (link)
Everything that Oliver said made sense, and, more than that, he was putting Collin’s turbulent mind at ease. The weight of the arm across his stomach served as a further anchor, and he wanted so badly to turn into Oliver, bury himself against him, but he was swiftly becoming too exhausted to do anything more than drag his fingers over Oliver’s forearm. He managed a chuckle, however, and murmured, “All mums love me,” before falling silent again.

As Oliver listed his friends, he tried to remember “the girls”. Katie he remembered from the awful Christmas party, of course, but he was having trouble recalling the others- Angie-something? Maybe an Alicia? He found himself smiling, trying to picture the look on his siblings' faces when they found out he was shagging Oliver-bloody-Wood. “No, I get it,” he said on the back of a shallow nod, and blinking slowly; he was having trouble keeping his eyes open. He managed to smile over at Oliver, darting in for a brief kiss before settling back again. “I’ll take you however I can.”

His brow furrowed. “I’m not sure if I mean that innuendo, given what we just did, but I might.” A dopey smile crept across his face, and he chuckled. “You called us ‘lovers’. Can’t say I’m upset about that. Kinda like it.” Collin yawned hugely and finally turned so that he could cuddle Oliver properly, almost burrowing into his side. “Gonna be your mostly private boyfriend."

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[info]bl_oliver
2017-09-06 02:47 am UTC (link)
Oliver laughed softly, tucking his arm more firmly around Collin as he snuggled in closer. It hadn't occurred to him that referring to them the way he had would be unusual. It was what they were, wasn't it? He liked the reaction it got from Collin, though, and so he didn't point out the logicality of it. It did, however, send a pleasant shiver through him when Collin took things a step further and gave himself the title of boyfriend.

Oliver liked the sound of that one, too, even if there was still that little part of his mind that couldn't quite grasp everything that was happening between them.

"We should try to get some sleep," he said, running one hand slowly up and down Collin's arm without really thinking about it. "Even if we don't head to Diagon till later in the day, we'll need some time to put together our plan of attack." And maybe sneak in a bit more quiet time together, if they were lucky. Fuck Zimmerman and the Wasps and the League and the press and everyone else who would intrude in the coming days.

The sheets were twisted half under them and half pushed down to the bottom of the bed, more a result of Collin's restless napping than anything else. Oliver managed to twist and get a handful of them without having to move away much, and he yanked the covers over both of them. He kissed Collin one more time for good measure, lingering in it simply because he could, and then settled back against the pillows with his arms around...well, his boyfriend, he supposed. He smiled in the darkness as he closed his eyes and let himself drift off.

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