no (avoidbeingseen) wrote in bloodburn, @ 2011-05-17 02:09:00 |
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Dear Stephen,
I'm sorry it had to end this way; I really am truly, very sorry, but it has to be. I cannot live with my own sins any longer, even with you standing behind me – in spite of them, rather than because of them, no matter what you may think or feel about this matter. Know that I held you very dear as a friend – perhaps my only one, in fact, whom I have not seen die or otherwise lost because of my scurrilous associations – and that I will miss you dearly.
I mean to die, Stephen, but I do hope to have a Christian burial, in spite of this gravest of sins – one from which I cannot be absolved, I fear. It's all right, though; I know that eternal fires await me, regardless of whether a mere priest, who doesn't know the entire story – because I committed the sin of a lie by omission, as well, in my Penance to him – has absolved me of my many sins before this last and final one. Still, however, I do relish the idea of a Christian burial – if my priest will even perform the last rites over a suicide! It will at least mean I've been laid to rest properly – and not thrown into a mass grave of some sort when my comrades discover I was “abducted” by a “Muggle!”
I am sorry to do this to you, Stephen, but then again – if you hadn't “abducted” me, I could have done this at home, without upsetting you overly with this sort of... gore. I mean, at least Uncle Nicholas is inured to such sights by now, after all his time in the Healing profession.
No, Stephen; I know what you must be thinking now, upon reading that, but... Uncle Nicholas would not have been able to save me, either; I would have ensured that much!
Your dear friend,
Matthew Selwyn