Julian took a breath, looking around slowly. "Most of the time," he said. "Not during the Moon. The more I try and fight it, the less control I have." His voice quieted for a moment. "Like with Em."
It hurt to talk about Emily, but this Alpha probably needed to know. "My ex. Gave her a line, told her I was sick. She came over anyway to surprise me with some soup. She didn't leave in time. I tried, I fought not to change, but after it happened..." He looked back at his feet. "I don't remember any of it. Nothing."