Minis
I'm saying you're both important to me and I'm not going to compare or rate importance.
Of course we're okay. I mean we're okay if you say we're okay. It sucks you're leaving again, I know you have to, but I don't think you realize how much it sucks without you. I'm still so mad at you, and I wish I could say that without you immediately going "i know I'm awful, I'm trash" because that's not what I mean to say. I think you're amazing and not-trash and I don't get why you think otherwise. But you still abandoned me, you decided to leave, and whatever was going on in your heart and mind, you chose not to tell me until now. And I can't force you to tell me things, but it hurt, it hurt for months, it felt like you ripped a whole part of me away. I'm not me without you. I miss you all of the time, and I feel like there's hundreds of miles between us, literally and figuratively. So now you're like should I leave earlier, NO, I don't want you to leave at all, but I wasn't given a say in that, so I have to live with it.
I love you, Bucky. I think the world of you. But you abandoned me, and now you're just going to do it again. And your response to this will probably be maybe I'm better off without you, but that's not true, I'm always at my best with you. I just wish you'd stay instead of run away. And for the record, I know you need to go to school, and it's good for you. I mean emotionally, mentally, running away, putting distance between us. How am I supposed to trust my heart - Darcy's heart - to you when I'm not sure if you'll stick around for us as friends, let alone as a ... boyfriend or lover or whatever we'd call it.