I'm sure with time it'll get less so. Or that it'll become a daily part of who you are now, which isn't necessarily bad. You went through something traumatic and it's awful, but there are people here who care about you and will help if you want us to.
Research is my forte. We'll figure it out.
I didn't have control over it. No mentor to help me through it or any knowledge of what I was at all. I used to go into fugue states and end up in places without explanation pretty frequently.