JAMIE.
Of course I love you, you idiot. I've loved you since we were kids. I was obsessed with you. You see what Howard said up there? Bucky this, Bucky that, I might as well have been a stalker. And that was before I realized I was IN love with you. And don't listen to Steve, he was mad at you because you weren't communicating. We both have a lot of baggage when it comes to feeling like you don't respect us.
I picked Tony because you're right, in a lot of ways we are incredibly screwed up. How I feel about him is different, how he makes me feel is different. It's saner, probably healthier. It's not this obsession that not talking to him for less than nine days makes me think I can't breath. And god the way he loves me. I never thought anyone could love me that way. You know how I'm saying I always want to be better, I have to be better? He makes me feel like I already am better. I'm that person I want to be.
I'm not saying this to hurt you, I'm saying it so you understand it has nothing to do with you not being deserving or me not loving you. You deserve everything. But this means I'm losing you. This means we're not going to be us anymore. Who am I without you?