STEFFIE.
You picked Tony over me because you didn't think I could be there for you. Don't you dare tell me I don't know what it's like to feel like I'm not worth loving. Steve told me I didn't deserve you. I know he's right and it's just pathetic that I can't get over you and pretend like you did.
I loved you then, like a brother, a sister, or that's what I told myself. I'm sorry you didn't see that, I'm sorry that I'm shit at communication, and I'm sorry you felt that way. But you don't know what I'm feeling, you don't know what's going on with my head. I wish you were a switch I could turn off because I want you to be happy and it hurts knowing that I'm not going to be the one making you happy, but I can't be around you and just pretend.