STEFFIE.
I never thought your feelings, were disgusting, Steve. Never. I didn't return them then, but that doesn't meant I thought you were disgusting or that your feelings were disgusting. You know I've never had a problem with who you love no matter what. The problem was I didn't think I wanted to be with you then because of my own hangups because of my feelings.
It's worse knowing that there's something here. It's such a fucking tease knowing that there's something there but just out of reach. I don't expect you to take it any other way than however way you want to take it, but I'm trying really hard to do what's right for me. I keep getting so worked up over this and I can't do that anymore. I can't.