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I know it's so hard to think that way when nothing feels like it's going to be okay again. There was a time I was convinced I was the reason everything was terrible. When I became Alpha, I was so terrified I'd end up like Peter that I almost set myself on fire. I had a push, but I think I might have gotten there on my own. My friends brought me back from that. The reminder that they didn't want that for me, that they wanted me happy and whole brought me back.
If you let them, they'll do the same for you. They'll bring you back from this doubt, they'll help you have happy things again. You just have to let them.