isaac;
And not knowing what you consider best outside of Allison is perfectly fine. She's your anchor here, and that's respectable. You two have your own little pack aside from the others from your world and from those like yours. Bear with me because you know I love to hear my own voice, but I remember going through something with my best mates when I got here. Both Sirius and Remus were older than I was and had experienced everything I had, my future, my death, and their futures back home without me. It was hard to relate to them because they weren't the exact same people as I knew because of all of those experiences that had shaped them, but at the end of the day they still had elements of my best friends in them. It takes time, and luckily we've all been granted that here.
I'm glad you feel safe somewhere. We've worked hard in order to make our home some place safe for our family, and we do this because we want to, not because we have to.