little!isaac / dr. allison
Are you going to be upset if I go Mental Health Professional on you?
Because honestly, I feel that you seeing a counselor or psychologist could do wonders for both your self-esteem and trust levels. Your father wasn't winning any awards for his rendition of parenting, and I think that you bottling that all up isn't going to help matters in the slightest. You find someone you trust and you just talk when you feel that you're ready. Their job is to listen and to help you through it.