Yeah. I am. I don't know how I'll be able to forget about all of that even though I know it wasn't you and it's really unfair for me to put that on you at all because what you went through was way worse than anything we had to put up with down here. I should be able to just move past it and get back to how we were but [...] I don't know how. And that does scare me a little, but mostly it makes me sad.