[...] I don't hate it as much as I pretend to, or I guess as much as I want to. It's not this place's fault that my life's been shitty but it's easier to lay a lot of the blame here, not just with the school, but the people here. It's easier to blame this school and be mad at the people here than it is to really face up to some of the things I've done, or the decisions I've made. That's a shitty thing to do but I'm just hard wired to do and say the shitty things. Probably because they're easier, like I said.
Part of me doesn't want to like it here because it feels like if I do that then something will go wrong and I'll lose it or they'll kick me up. I'm trying to keep my expectations low so it doesn't hurt so much when it ends, because good things never last.