RP: Is this reality? Date: August 11, 2006 Characters: Millicent Location: Antonin's house Private/Public: Private Rating: G-PG Warnings: Emotional trauma, potions addiction Summary: Millicent tries to remember her detoxing, but the image is blurry and while her body isn't craving any longer, her mind still does.
They told her it was over. That it would be easier from here. That her body didn't crave anymore.
So why was she still longing for a potion? Why was her mouth still watering when she thought of them? Why was she still having nightmares (when she slept at all)?
She didn't have much recollection of the detox, just that she'd been in more pain than she could ever remember being and that there had been people there – Antonin she was quite sure, and Justin of course. She thought Morag had been there too, but she couldn't remember and perhaps it was all in her mind. She knew there had been at least someone there, speaking telling her it would get better. She wasn't sure she believed that.
There had been an Erkling there – laughing – trying to snatch away Ella and the baby, no wait that was before. Or wasn't it? It had snatched the baby. Had it taken Ella now too? Where was Ella? The Erkling was gone, she'd hit it she thought, but did that mean Ella was safe?
Millicent sat up and looked around - suddenly unsure of herself. Had the Erkling really been there? Or had she imagined it? She couldn't have, could she? It's been so real. It had been right there, over by the wall – laughing. And then there, next to her, and she'd hit it. But was it even an Erkling she'd hit, or was it a man, or was it something at all? She wasn't sure of anything any longer.
She shuddered as she slumped back on the pillows of the bed – not sure what was real and what was not. How long had it been since she saw Ella? How many days, weeks, had past since Pansy took her away? How long since they took her potions away? She still craved them – even if they did say she shouldn't. They were wrong.