He did remember, yet he couldn't pretend it was the same. Of course he could not tell her that. 'Perhaps you should judge me,' he said softly. 'Or perhaps I do enough for the both of us.' But then he was the one who had to live with seeing the look in Percy's eyes that day every time he closed his eyes. No matter how right his reasons for doing what he did was, he was not sure he'd ever forgive himself for the pain he'd caused Percy.
He had to clench his jaw when Pansy hugged him, holding her tightly even as he tried to remember how to fake a face. Why was something he'd done all his life so hard to do now?
'I'm not alone,' he finally managed to say. 'Susan is right next door and she's been-' my lifeline. 'making sure I do all the things I need to do. Eat, sleep, get to work on time.' He gave her another half hearted smile. 'I don't know how I managed to get so good friends,' he said.