She shook her head nearly violently, not wanting Justin and Ella - especially Ella - to see her like this. 'I need to throw up,' she said, though even as her stomach turned inside out with pain, there was nothing to throw up. All it did was made her convulse and shake with the pain and grief.
She tried to breathe, she really did, but her body didn't want to listen. It simply hurt too much, the pain was too intense and she couldn't stop herself from hyperventilating as panic over not breathing set in.
She should have stayed away, she should have thought of the baby, she should have kept her promise and went to the Shack at the first sign of a symptom...why had she been so foolish?