"I don't want to stop you..." Tristian said trying not to make it sound like a whisper. To sound more confident than that. He wanted Rush, he'd always wanted him. And he could feel it right now that Rush wanted him to.
But what if it all went wrong? What if Rush regretted it later? Took it out on him and their relationship was over. But still Rush was the sober one here. And he was initiating all of this.
He moved a hand up to brush over Rush's hair. This was his chance, and he had to take it while it was available. Deal with the consequences later.