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I don't think anyone other than G-d knows all the answers. That's why talking to other people is important.
Keeping secrets from the people closest to you, it's hard. I always wanted to tell Leo. But you can't. There's another doctor, Naadiah, and her wife doesn't know a thing about what we do. I can't imagine that.
Yes. I know, and clinging to the life I would have had will only make me miserable. Plus apparently time is more complicated than we give it credit for.