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Hannah Silver {Cinderella} ([info]noglass_slipper) wrote in [info]bellumlogs,
@ 2010-02-25 19:16:00

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Entry tags:cinderella, red riding hood

Who: Hannah and Boyd
What: A chance meeting in group therapy
Where: Local charity hospital
When: After this and this
Warnings: Medical stuff, maybe?


When Hannah was first admitted to the mental hospital, her therapy was one-on-one with her psychiatrist, but after a few years and some progress she was introduced to group therapy. For months she refused to talk despite the therapist's best attempts, but during her last two years she began to open up. The others in group had been through similar experiences - two had previously attempted suicide, and nearly all had been abused in some way - and they understood, in a strange way. They'd all been through things they couldn't handle and hit rock bottom, lashing out at either themselves or others.

Once she'd been released, though, she'd gone back to weekly therapy sessions with her psychiatrist that soon became every other week. She was pleased with the progress Hannah was making, and even though she still prescribed two kinds of medication, the time when she would no longer need them was coming.

Or so she thought.

Hannah called her psychiatrist the evening the discovered Emery was gone, which resulted in a last-minute session the next day. She'd told the doctor about Emery and Liam moving in - she'd only given their first names - and described how she knew Emery, how glad she was that he'd moved in and she couldn't wait to see him again. Now she found herself telling her psychiatrist that he'd left without any warning, rambling on about how good he'd been to her but she hadn't been there when he needed her and it was her fault he was gone.

She refused to talk about Liam, though.

By the end of the session, her psychiatrist had recommended that she try attending one of her group therapy sessions at one of the smaller hospitals. She thought it might help to vocalize her feelings about Emery's departure, not to mention the fact that she suspected there was a reason Hannah wouldn't talk about his brother.

So here she was in group therapy, surrounded by people she didn't know but obviously needed to be here as much as she did. Her psychiatrist was leading the session, although she said she was there as a 'facilitator' more than anything else, and this was supposed to be a place for them to share their feelings without fear of judgment. First each member - including herself - had introduced themselves, and although a few names sounded familiar, she didn't recognize any faces.

She did notice that all of the people seated in the circle were female. Only one was a redhead, one hand swathed in bandages with bruises and marks visible on her exposed skin. Her own bruises had faded, and the knife wound on her shoulder was almost completely healed.

Maybe she'd share, but for now she was content to listen.


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[info]noglass_slipper
2010-02-27 08:22 am UTC (link)
Hannah kept quiet after her turn, fighting the sudden and unwelcome urge to cry. She could go back to the building after this, and if her psychiatrist wanted to schedule another session before the one she had next week, well, she could call her. There was no reason for her to stay here at the hospital, especially not in the psych ward - she hadn't admitted to anything that would cause herself harm. Someone hurting her wasn't enough to earn herself another stay in a mental hospital, and since Emery and Liam really were gone, nothing more could be done.

She wished she could talk to Red without everyone else around, but she had no idea where she lived or even what her real name was. The e-mail written on the sign in paper surprised her, but at the same time she was suddenly grateful. Glancing upward, she met the girl's eyes with a smile and a nod.

It would be nice to have someone who understood, even if their correspondence was over the computer.

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[info]ex_sanguine300
2010-02-27 04:28 pm UTC (link)
Boyd was glad the session came to a close when it did. She was shaking fairly significantly by the time it was over (from the reduced load of drugs in her system) and when the nurse came to walk her back to her room, she reached over and squeezed Hannah's hand warmly before going. "It's going to be okay," she promised the other woman soothingly, her smile genuine. "E-mail me?" she asked.

She slipped her hand from Hannah's and offered her one more smile, a smile that said she was glad to have met a kindred spirit, and she let the nurse take her back to her room and her medicines.

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[info]noglass_slipper
2010-02-27 05:46 pm UTC (link)
Hannah was planning on calling a cab back, and the arrival of the nurse told her that Red was staying here at the hospital, or at least somewhere close by. Her hand was oddly comforting despite everything, and she found herself returning the smile. "I will."

She watched the nurse lead Red out, remembering the days when she had been in a similar situation, before heading outside to wait.

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