Re: 401/802 i'm going to regret this when im fully sober yes.
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it was this guy. he pretended to be a newspapr reporter at my school once to intervew me but he was the one who was stalking me this hole time. anyway i went to get cofee and he was there so we talked. then i think he drugged my drink and [...] when i woke up i was handcuffed to a chair in this room. he kept me there for a long time and if i made him mad hed punish me and wouldnt give me food for awhile. but the food he did give me [...] it was [...] i dont think it was animal meat. and he showed me things on the tv terrible things. things he did to people. i had to watch... i had to. it was just [...] and he called me something else. not cole. he wanted me to be like him, like a brother. a differnt person. so he gave me a new name.
[...] she doesnt understand. she thinks that i can just be okay and we can be okay but it doesn't work like that. because he made me [...] he made me try to [...]
he made me try to hurt her. kill her. and [...] i almost did. god help me i almost DID. i didnt want to but [...] its like he made some new part of me come out that i didnt know existed. hes gone now because of me but he'll always be there. he said he would. and so i thought it would be best if i just got rid of myself so nothing else could happen and it could end but she wont LET me. so im stuck. [...] and in the morning ill probably regret telling you all this.