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Tweak says, "Prince Hal, I miss you so :´("

Boyd Ainslie | Red Riding Hood (ex_sanguine300) wrote in bellumletale,
@ 2010-05-26 13:33:00

Entry tags:

beast, big bad wolf, red riding hood

R1, 601
[After her chat with Ella and definitely NOT sent from 601.]

Locked to R1
I didn't tell him.

Locked to 601
Mind tellin me why?

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	labete 2010-05-26 05:38 pm UTC (link)
	Fat lot of good that does me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 05:43 pm UTC (link)
	Don't you even start with me. I get home, get fucked against a wall and bitten and clawed up, Shane's gone mad, your Beauty comes knockin on the door, and Shane's cuttin himself to pieces, and it's all my damn fault. AND I DIDN'T EVEN TELL HIM. He's just assumin, dammit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 05:46 pm UTC (link)
	[Pause.] It's not your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 05:49 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, hush. Just... she was upset, your woman. I didn't tell her nothin, but she ain't gonna believe otherwise, handsome. I seen that on a woman's face before. I want a life that don't come with bruises. [...] She talk to you yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 06:00 pm UTC (link)
	Of course she was upset, it's not like I broke her heart or anything. Why would she want to talk to me? You want the bruises to stop, you have to leave Shane. You know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 06:05 pm UTC (link)
	And when he goes and kills someone on account of it? You are a fool, stupid man. Women forgive, especially when they're in love with a person. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 06:10 pm UTC (link)
	There's a solution for that and it's not you with him. ~~I don't want her to forg~~ She might end up happier this way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	Handsome, I'm willin to let everyone else sleep with me. I've done nothin but mess up that man's life since I met him. It's- it don't matter. I'm tired of all of it. So damn tired. [...] Wanna tell me why you done it? You know Shane, handsome. It was always gonna get back to her. You don't got feelings for me like I got for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 06:34 pm UTC (link)
	Tired of people telling me what I feel and what I don't feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 06:38 pm UTC (link)
	You ain't in love with me, handsome, and we both know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 06:43 pm UTC (link)
	Never said I was. You didn't think I was. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	No. I didn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 06:51 pm UTC (link)
	You're saying you are? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 06:58 pm UTC (link)
	You fool man, I've told you that before. What's the point of me repeatin it now? It ain't the matter at hand. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 08:08 pm UTC (link)
	I thought you'd figure out Guess it doesn't make much difference why I'm taking advantage of you, does it? Fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	How'd we get so fucked up? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 labete 2010-05-26 08:56 pm UTC (link)
	Not new to me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/R1 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 09:01 pm UTC (link)
	~~But how do we fix~~ [...] [No reply] (Reply to this) (Parent)

	1007/601 wolfishane 2010-05-26 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Why what? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/601 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	Why'd you go hurtin an innocent woman for no reason? We been messed up for a long time, us three, me, you and Daniel - but we ain't been cruel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/601 wolfishane 2010-05-26 11:07 pm UTC (link)
	Force of habit. I don't know, Boyd, I thought she ought to know who she was with. I didn't like the idea of her being with him because of a lie he was telling her about himself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/601 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	So you just went assumin I slept with Daniel, even though I never said as much?? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/601 wolfishane 2010-05-26 11:09 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not an idiot, contrary to popular opinion. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: 1007/601 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	You ain't ever been cruel before. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: 1007/601

wolfishane
2010-05-26 11:17 pm UTC (link)

I wasn't trying to be.

You know what? No, fuck it. Here's the truth.

There is nothing I can do about this. Nothing. I don't know how to change who I am or fix what's wrong with me or be the kind of person you deserve. It makes me angry that Daniel, who I still don't think cares about you, or deserves you any more than I do, got to be the one who made you feel safe. What if I can never be that? What if I can never be both things? What if I can never be in love with you and make you happy at the same time? I don't like to consider that future, but it is a possibility, and in that scenario I will never, ever really have you because I'm incapable of having a fucking relationship or being with the person I love like a normal fucking human being without hurting them.

So I told his girlfriend, because I hated him for being able to make you feel safe when I can't, and I wasn't going to kill him.

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	Re: 1007/601 ex_sanguine300 2010-05-26 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	And that was selfish, Shane, and it was cruel. And he didn't make me feel safe. He didn't even make me feel wanted. Lock yourself up for the moon. [No further replies] (Reply to this) (Parent)