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Yeah. It's like you've stuck your brain in a fire and had it crammed back in your head. You know, you're a big strong guy but you've also been through a metric shit ton. It doesn't make what happened right, but it explains why you flipped your gold-plated lid.
Generally, if you're drinking Bloody Marys for breakfast, you're an alcoholic. Take it from me, since I had a super casual open relationship with booze for a while there. And that, my big Shakespeare talky friend, is how sex tapes happen.
All you need to do is explain what happened with your fam and your planet, and that having your last family link taken like that made you lose control. Which is true, isn't it?