Tony | Sebastian(TRIGGER WARNINGS AGAIN)
I don't know that I'll ever be able to forgive my dad. I know it's not really the reason, but I honestly think... I honestly think that a part of the reason I'm gay is because it would drive him nuts. He'd hate me, more than he did already. And I know he did.
My parents were old parents. My dad was alive in the 40s. He knew Steve Rogers as a young man, before he was frozen. I miss my mom, but I'm not even sure if she would accept me for who I am. Not if she was still with my father.
I'm... I want kids one day, but I'm honestly terrified. I'm terrified that I'll end up being my father. I don't want to do that to kids. Especially my kid. My own flesh and blood. I'm not saying never but it's not a concern right now.
I really wish I could meet them. Ask them how the hell my dad turned out like he did.
He'll accept it eventually.
It's... I wish I could believe that I was worth being alive. I don't. Not anymore. It's amazing.... I usually have a huge ego. But I just can't believe that I'm any good anymore.