Tony | Sebastian(TRIGGER WARNINGS AGAIN)
It's the worst thing of all. I think I tried denying...way too many things all at once for too long. Or I let myself be distracted to hold back the pain of them.
It's good you've learned who you are, then. I think I have a way to go.
There's actually a boyfriend in the picture, but they are...I think the term was 'open'. Damien hardly seemed to MIND when he found out. So you're less that guy than you believe.
Well, The easiest way I've found direction is in looking to what those around you need. Something to take you out of your own head can help, no matter how awful things are. If your mind is elsewhere that's time spent away from it.
You may find it yet. I thought I would never have it, that I couldn't so long as I chose to leave, and yet, I find it still, sometimes. Just an idea, of course, but it might be something.
I would hardly have chosen to have mine and yet...I think you sell yourself short, though I would say there are other factors in choosing to have or not have one. Still, you are always stronger than you think.