Tony | Sebastian(TRIGGER WARNINGS AGAIN)
I do feel that way. I really hope it goes away. I used to do a lot of denying who I was with cheap sex. I know exactly how it feels. At least it's not women, that would just hurt people. I know I'm gay now, that's at the least silver lining.
He didn't mention anyone else, and I really hope he doesn't have someone he cheated on. I wouldn't feel right about being that guy.
I don't know what to do about anything. I wish I did. I feel so... lost and without a direction. It's just.... I've never felt this way before. I always had a direction before, a goal. I knew what I was doing. Now I'm just.... floating. It's a bit disconcerting.
That peace eludes me. I'm never going to be that peaceful again. And I know it's wrong to want to try again and feel it, because it would be a bad idea. I just.... I can't... I feel like I'm in hell constantly. When I was dying, it felt like heaven. I don't know how to live on this planet anymore.
There's.... I don't know that I want to object a kid to me, maybe the Stark name should end with me.