Tony | Sebastian(TRIGGER WARNINGS AGAIN)
I feel so dirty. I'm going to shower, and I'm going to stay in there till I don't feel dirty anymore. Don't give him too much shit, he was really respectful, actually.
I really want sex to mean something to me, I really do. I just... I know that's not going to happen. No one's... There's no way anyone's going to want to be with me. I'm too broken.
I don't know. It should, help, but it doesn't. I wish that it did. I just.... I feel like I'm in hell. When I tried.... When I was lying there on that floor, bleeding out, I felt at peace. I knew that I was going to die, and I didn't care. I knew it was all going to be over.
Kids.... I would love to have them. I just know I'd be a crap father, especially right now.