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Fic: Pain is so close to pleasure - Part 8
Hello everyone *waves* here’s the next part then, it’s slightly brighter stuff this time – but it’s only calm before the storm ;) *huggles all*

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Heading: Pain is so close to pleasure Part 8/?
By: finvampire 
Beta:Ash C.
Pairing: William (Spike)/Liam(Angel) Xander,Willow,Wesley,Anya,Buffy and Giles mentioned
Fandom: AtS
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, angst, SLASH,human AU
Disclaimer: I do not own characters of Angel, Spike Xander,Willow,Wesley,Anya,Buffy or Giles Credit goes to Joss Whedon and Co. Story concept is fully mine.
Summary: William gets a “brother” Liam , when his mom decides to invite her new boyfriend to live with them ;) and what’s funny is that William is gay, but his mom doesn’t know that ...and William just found out it himself a while ago, and even worse Liam isn’t gay (or that’s what he says) Gerard is not what he seems to be.
Warnings: angst, SLASH, M/M sex, strong language, involuntary sex,violence,incest
Feedback: pretty please *flutters eyelashes*

A/N: yay...finally there is little love in the air, but be warned – the black cloud is still hanging over it all. ;)









“You must be strong now. You must never give up. And when people make you cry and you are afraid of the dark, don't forget the light is always there.”

~Unknown~

“I reached for sleep and drew it round me like a blanket muffling pain and thought together in the merciful dark.”

~Mary Stewart~


Part 8


The leaves made soft rustling sounds, crushing under his heavy boots. Spike was lost in thought - thinking about all that had happened since Gerard & Angel moved in. It had been a stream of tears after that, Angel’s situation coming as a huge surprise - a shock that made your stomach turn and heart break just thinking about it. Well, it wasn’t like Spike’s life had been all glamorous, but at least it was fairly normal – well, until this.

He’d had to take Angel to the emergency room the previous day; he’d been furious and ready to clobber Gerard’s head with something heavy, when suddenly he felt Angel’s gaze on him, forming the word ‘help’ with the slight movement of his lips. He felt overwhelming joy and relief that Angel wasn’t lost after all and from that moment he made a promise: he would protect Angel, even if it meant hurting himself in the process. He couldn’t let that maniac touch Angel ever again – he was too damaged already; one more time would probably be fatal to him.

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Spike took Angel with him when he went to pick up Xander and Willow – they had a project in literature class, which they all attended. Angel was walking silently beside Spike, glancing at him from time to time. The look in Angel’s eyes ripped his heart open, making it clench painfully– Spike had seen something gruesome in the depths of those brown orbs: a yearning for death.

Spike’s mind darkened. He didn’t know how to help Angel and, as if that wasn’t bad enough, he had a constant hard-on these days. Only one look or touch from his ‘brother’and he was almost coming in his pants. Spike knew it wasn’t helping, but couldn’t do anything about it. William, also known as ‘Spike’ amongst his friends, was desperately in love.


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Xander was smiling broadly as he opened the door for Spike, stiffening slightly after spotting Angel behind him. He knew Angel was Spike’s ‘brother’, but he was also a jock – one of those people who usually made fun of him and beat him. Xander had noticed something weird about Spike after Angel moved in with the guy. He’d been more nervous, always stealing glances in Angel’s direction when he thought Xander wasn’t looking – it almost made you think that Spike wanted Angel. Xander chuckled in his mind. ‘That can’t possibly be the case...you’re losing it man,’ he pushed the thought away and opened the door more widely for Spike and Angel to step in.

“Hey pal…what’s up? Are ya ready to dig in to the bleedin’project?” Spike greeted him playfully and patted Xander on the shoulder while Angel stood awkwardly beside Spike. ”Xander…this is Angel ….Angel…this is Xander, one of my best mates,” Spike introduced them, searching for disapproval in Xander’s eyes.

Xander had decided to give Angel a chance, so he just reached for the offered hand and shook it firmly.

”Nice to meet you, Angel man,” he said grinning widely, as it seemed that Angel was very nervous about this all and, for some reason, he looked like he had all the troubles in the world hanging over his head. Xander didn’t know how he got to that conclusion though – there was just something about this guy he couldn’t figure out.


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Turned out that Xander couldn’t leave the house as his parents were out, so they decided to stay there instead. Willow came to join them later; she apologised for being late and introduced herself to Angel, almost losing her ability to speak as her eyes traveled across Angel’s firm body. ’Naughty Willow…stop it right now…he’s so out of your league.’ She willed herself to look away before it would get obvious what she was gaping at. ’But god is he too-hot-for-his-own-good,’ she sighed in her mind, strolling around the couch and sitting down next to Xander.

Angel had been sitting in the corner the whole time, listening to the conversation – which seemed as though it was echoing from miles away . It was like he had a veil over his eyes, making everything look hazy and surreal. Eventually he fell asleep, head resting against the wall. For the first time in a very long time, Angel slept peacefully.

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Eventually they ended up spending the night at Xander’s. They’d been so focused into the project that no-one noticed the passing of time. Angel was still asleep as Spike spotted him leaning against the wall, looking like an real ’angel’. ’God he’s beautiful…just want to kiss him,’ Spike thought, heading towards Angel. Xander had presented them the couch to sleep on as they were ’brothers’, so there shouldn’t be a problem. ’Fat chance…How can I sleep in a same bed with him?...Bloody’ell…it’s not gonna work…dammit,’ Spike mumbled inside his head, letting out a desperate sigh as he reached out to wake Angel.

”Oi! Wake up, pet….Gotta make the bed,” Spike said, giving Angel an gentle shake.

”Mmm…what? What time is it? What you mean, make the bed?” Angel murmured, half asleep, as he tried to focus his eyes on Spike.

”Well…as we are spending the night here, we gotta make the bed on the couch,” Spike snickered. Angel looked incredibly adorable like this – hair all mussed and eyes half open, twinkling like stars across the night sky. ’Soddin’ell….now ’m getting all poetic….What are you doing to me, Angel?’ he whined silently in his mind. He had to take this slow - for Angel’s sake, and his own.

”Oh…okay…I’m coming,” Angel agreed, yawning widely and running his hand through his thick hair, which was pointing out in every direction – it made him look like a oversized puppy.

Finally they managed to get the bed ready and were about to settle down as Angel whispered ”Spike…I’m sorry.”

”Huh? About what, pet?” he asked with an amazed expression on his face.

“Well....you know...The whole thing...me being such a pussy...and....shoving you on the floor…I didn’t mean to...I actually enjoyed the kiss,” he stammered, the last part coming in a whisper.

Spike was dumbfounded – Angel had enjoyed the kiss? ‘Oh...bloody ‘ell, pet...Stop it or I’m really going to loose it...Don’t go saying those things to me,’ he thought, trying to look as calm as possible. But inside he was a mess.

“It’s okay pet...I didn’t have the right to attack you like that,” Spike finally answered, gazing into Angel’s dark eyes – they actually looked almost black now, in the dark; shimmering inner light.

Angel just looked at him and started to move closer. His pace was as easy as some giant cat’s – seductive and innocent at the same time. Spike looked at him questioningly, mouth falling open as Angel started to kiss his neck along his jawline, going downwards and finding his nipple. This was all too much for Spike, and he couldn’t restrain himself anymore – he tackled Angel onto the floor, pinning his hands down, and started to worship every part of the bigger body with his tongue.

“Ah...Spike....please,” Angel moaned, arching his hips against Spike’s growing erection, but Spike pushed his hips down gently and continued his exploration of the brunet’s body. He couldn’t get enough of Angel’s beautiful skin, his soulful brown eyes and his angelic face. Spike didn’t know how Angel had managed to keep all that warmth inside his soul, even after going through such terrible times. He could see something else too, though – Angel’s soul was fading; in danger of disappearing altogether, if Spike couldn’t save him before that.

“Mmm...not yet, pet....I want to make you feel good...I want to worship you and show you how much I love you,” Spike murmured against Angel’s heated skin as he licked his inner thigh through the jeans and showered the golden skin of his belly with little nibbles and kisses.

“Spike ...please...I can’t take it anymore…I’m gonna come,” Angel panted and came into his new jeans. Spike was a little annoyed at himself, but mostly happy – now he knew he had a chance with Angel. And even it was a small chance…he would take it.

“Mmm....you looked so hot when you came that you made me come into my pants, luv...so...I guess we’re even, right?” Spike chuckled, kissing Angel softly on the mouth and settling against his back.

”You looked beautiful….and….I love you too, Spike,” Angel breathed, shutting his eyes.
Spike wondered if he had heard what he thought he had and felt his heart swell with happiness and love. After a while, they were both in a deep sleep – their bodies pressed tightly together as the dreamworld replaced the reality.

TBC

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