camcansing (9:31:33 PM): At least they've got you on the good stuff, right? lies like smoke (9:32:09 PM): I'm not sure. I can't decide whether the pain or the numbness is more annoying. camcansing (9:32:19 PM): Neither really go away. camcansing (9:32:50 PM): I figured I might as well give you something to look forward to. What a friend I am. camcansing (9:33:14 PM): You'll be angry. You'll be sad. You'll accept it. You'll attempt to move on. camcansing (9:33:28 PM): But good luck, Evan. Because shit like this sticks. lies like smoke (9:37:02 PM): Kerrigan, don't quit your fucking day job. Because, you would suck as a shrink. For the record, I'm not on any sort of psychotic emo medication, yet. I think they're focused on you know... the cuts, the bruises, the broken bones more so than that right now? 'Cause as far as they know, feeling miserable on the inside has never really killed a person... lies like smoke (9:37:27 PM): But, while you're jumping right to the hard part, I'll admit I figured as much. lies like smoke (9:43:11 PM): I suppose you're more realistic than a shrink though... camcansing (9:43:57 PM): I'm not going to sit you down and pat your hand, dude. I'm just telling you that people like to say 'It gets better, the pain goes away' and I don't think THAT is realistic. lies like smoke (9:44:17 PM): Thank fucking God for you, then. lies like smoke (9:44:50 PM): Because I'm going to have to sit through that bullshit for three hours a week. camcansing (9:45:01 PM): Because you need it. camcansing (9:45:45 PM): It's part of the process. If you skip a step, you have to go all the way back to the beginning. lies like smoke (9:48:55 PM): All that fucking psychiatrist is going to teach me is how much people lie to make themselves feel better. camcansing (9:49:02 PM): Pretty much. lies like smoke (9:50:31 PM): I guess they would hunt me down if I ditched, though. Because they already think I'm a psychopath and that I'm going to drink bleach or something. camcansing (9:50:41 PM): A psychopath? camcansing (9:50:48 PM): Any particular reason why? camcansing (9:50:58 PM): And I recommend Drain-O. camcansing (9:51:01 PM): Bleach burns. lies like smoke (9:52:42 PM): I'll keep that in mind. camcansing (9:54:26 PM): So back to being a psychopath. lies like smoke (9:55:49 PM): ... lies like smoke (9:56:04 PM): They obviously don't think I'm normal. camcansing (9:56:24 PM): The cat keeps attacking my feet. I apologize for my breaks in typing. I had more to add to that, but whatever. camcansing (9:56:28 PM): Why aren't you normal? lies like smoke (9:56:57 PM): Is that a rhetorical question? camcansing (9:57:16 PM): I don't believe in rhetoric. lies like smoke (9:57:40 PM): Okay, then. Fine. There are two options: lies like smoke (9:58:30 PM): A.) They think I'd be, you know, somewhat messed up after witnessing the death of my brother and his girlfriend. You know, just slightly. lies like smoke (9:59:17 PM): B.) They think I'd be messed up after being in a car accident that practically scrambled my brain. lies like smoke (9:59:27 PM): Either way, I'm fucked. lies like smoke (9:59:35 PM): That hospital was like a prison. camcansing (9:59:36 PM): You were fucked before. camcansing (9:59:49 PM): Let me ask you a question. camcansing (10:00:09 PM): Are you fine? camcansing (10:00:44 PM): As in, are you dealing with this? Are you thinking about reason and logic behind what happened? Or are you confused, upset, and angry? lies like smoke (10:03:40 PM): Do you think I'm fucking dealing with it? The only people who fucking deal with it are people whose distant relatives kick the bucket some 1,000 miles away. The people who barely knew the person who died. The people who don't fucking care. camcansing (10:04:08 PM): Then you're completely normal. camcansing (10:04:18 PM): Which means you're not a psychopath. camcansing (10:05:06 PM): But do the shrink thing because you have to. It's dumb, but there's usually free food or something that you can get out of it. Not to sound lighthearted, I'm not. I'm just telling the truth. lies like smoke (10:05:34 PM): It gives me some poor, unsuspecting idiot to yell at. lies like smoke (10:05:47 PM): Because the people I love don't deserve it. camcansing (10:06:03 PM): There you go. lies like smoke (10:06:07 PM): That fucking shrink is going to be afraid of me by the time they let me go. camcansing (10:06:15 PM): Just don't throw things. lies like smoke (10:07:53 PM): You know, Kerrigan, I never thought it was possible to hate absolutely everything. But, right now, I have to say, I feel like hating fucking everything. camcansing (10:08:25 PM): First step's the hardest, mate. lies like smoke (10:09:22 PM): I don't think anything is going to be easy anymore. camcansing (10:09:41 PM): It'll lessen in severity, but you're right. camcansing (10:09:54 PM): You'll think about it when you're doing something big. camcansing (10:11:15 PM): 'I wonder what my brother would say.' 'I wonder what my brother would think.' 'I wonder what my brother would do.' Holidays are a bitch. The first year is the worst. But it dulls a little more and a little more until it's just the sting occasionally. lies like smoke (10:11:42 PM): You're making me want to hurl, man. lies like smoke (10:11:46 PM): Seriously. lies like smoke (10:12:44 PM): I'm going to throw up like, an entire bag of Saltines. camcansing (10:13:02 PM): Saltines taste like shit anyway. lies like smoke (10:13:22 PM): I bet they taste worse coming back up. camcansing (10:13:28 PM): That's your call. camcansing (10:15:03 PM): I once had a competition with a bloke in school to see how many crackers we could down in a minute. And I thought I had it made--I eat faster than almost anyone in my family. And thirteen crackers in, I thought I was dying. So I'm sworn off of Saltines. For life. lies like smoke (10:16:05 PM): I haven't eaten anything else, really. They were here. So, I would have starved if someone hadn't brought them to me. camcansing (10:16:38 PM): You want something better? lies like smoke (10:18:40 PM): Do you have a personal chef in that big house of yours? camcansing (10:18:50 PM): Fuck no. lies like smoke (10:18:53 PM): Sorry I didn't make it to your shindig, by the way. lies like smoke (10:19:02 PM): I was kind of, you know, unconscious. camcansing (10:19:06 PM): They wouldn't let me leave to come hang with you. camcansing (10:19:22 PM): So I apologize for not being there to throw things at your face in your unconscious state. lies like smoke (10:19:44 PM): You're on a short leash, there, Kerrigan. camcansing (10:20:21 PM): I just couldn't get the Jag out of the garagae. camcansing (10:20:26 PM): Whoa. GARAGE* lies like smoke (10:20:51 PM): Dude, I could care less about your typos. lies like smoke (10:21:21 PM): Garagae, garage, whatever. Same thing. camcansing (10:21:25 PM): I care about the cat trying to eat my hands. camcansing (10:21:31 PM): Do you want food or not? lies like smoke (10:21:41 PM): How about I eat the cat, and then we both win. camcansing (10:21:47 PM): How about not. camcansing (10:21:56 PM): House, M.D. probably tastes disgusting. camcansing (10:22:05 PM): Mostly because he smells like shit. lies like smoke (10:22:25 PM): Would Echo kill me if I ate him? camcansing (10:22:35 PM): I would kill you if you ate him. camcansing (10:22:38 PM): He's my cat. lies like smoke (10:23:02 PM): That would be the only good reason to eat him, then. camcansing (10:23:22 PM): Don't bite the hands that feeds you, Brecht. lies like smoke (10:23:56 PM): ... lies like smoke (10:24:02 PM): I'm not a cannibal. camcansing (10:24:26 PM): Pizza? Chinese? Taco Bell? Wendy's? camcansing (10:25:48 PM): I'd offer Echo's cooking, but she massacres anything mildly edible and transforms it into something so inedible that it'll give you nightmares. lies like smoke (10:26:49 PM): Nightmares are old news. camcansing (10:26:59 PM): You have no idea. lies like smoke (10:27:09 PM): I would actually prefer to have them about Echo's cooking. camcansing (10:27:23 PM): I understand. camcansing (10:27:40 PM): But you do not deserve to be subjected to the horror that actually IS Echo's cooking. lies like smoke (10:29:28 PM): At least someone's having mercy on me. camcansing (10:29:53 PM): Only because I care. camcansing (10:30:19 PM): Take your pick. I'm hungry too, so I'll hop over and bother you until you attempt to kick me out. lies like smoke (10:31:07 PM): I seriously don't care. Whatever you feel like eating. lies like smoke (10:31:35 PM): Bother me as long as you want. My roommates obviously don't care enough to keep me from hanging myself in the closet. lies like smoke (10:31:40 PM): Not that I would... camcansing (10:31:59 PM): You know, you could always come chillax with Echo and I. camcansing (10:32:01 PM): Bring Cyrille. camcansing (10:32:06 PM): Whatever. lies like smoke (10:33:57 PM): Thanks. camcansing (10:34:27 PM): I'm bringing some of everything. camcansing (10:34:33 PM): And you can pick whatever you want. lies like smoke (10:34:54 PM): I shall call you Saint Kerrigan. camcansing (10:35:11 PM): And I'll give you funny looks. lies like smoke (10:35:46 PM): Whatever.