Lorcan Scamander (lorcander) wrote in alleyrpg, @ 2010-07-11 12:16:00 |
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Entry tags: | !communication, character: lorcan scamander |
RELAY OWL: Lorcan to Pema(NPC)
Dear Pema,
[Lorcan begins his letter with ruminations on the nature of "natural" as part of an ongoing conversation; in the interest of clarity these paragraphs have been cut. -ed.]
But I do understand this: you've found a purpose that I admire, and it's suited to you perfectly. I envy you that.
And I think you'll be the best thing that ever happened to your valley. You're right, they do need you and the knowledge you can bring them about conservation, and about the solutions that have been found in other parts of the world. Non-traditional solutions may work to preserve the important things about their tradition as caretakers of the magical valley. That's what's important.
I truly believe that nothing can survive without connection in this world. I think they know it too, deep down, even your mother, but you're probably the only person with both the skill and the ability to be heard there. But maybe someday that will change?
I guess it would be silly to deny that I hoped this trip of yours would end differently. That it would end. I hoped that you'd come back. I do understand why you don't want me there, I know how hard you worked last time, and I know I would get in the way as much as I helped, but I'll always be here for you, if you need me, if things change. Tell me what you're doing, and I'll make suggestions. They might not be the suggestions I'd make if I was there, but maybe I can help anyway?
Don't feel bad about me. And don't think that I've changed so much that I would want it any other way. I won't block your purpose in life, I wouldn't want to and if I'll miss you forever, well, that's the way it's supposed to be. At least I know you'll write.
And I sort of knew this was coming. Just being there for so long...I knew.
But I think I've always been a person who's looking for something? Maybe I did come to Britain looking for a sort of home, or a sort of homecoming, and it's brilliant to reconnect with old friends, and spend time with family, but I don't think I'm looking for a British life.
(And I don't think you're jealous, but I don't understand what you mean by saying feelings are untrustworthy, either. Or maybe I do? Feelings aren't everything, but sometimes they feel like it?)
No clues! I have two reasons, and that's enough for me. Please tell me the third, but I don't think it really matters. [Lorcan waxes technical on the subject of charms for a paragraph or two. -ed.]
I miss you. Maybe I could come to visit some time? I promise I wouldn't get in the way.
Tell your grandfather he's a very lucky man to have you attending upon his whims, tradition or no tradition. Or just imagine telling him, that's probably more satisfying anyway.
All my love,
Lorcan