It wasn't necessarily that she didn't want him to take her, or that she was actually worried about him- she did know he could take care of himself after all. But... "I'll be honest I don't even know if it's a good idea. I mean it could be a big waste of time. I bet Spokane is a big place and what are the odds I'm gonna even find him?" She asked, feeling her eyes get a bit heavy. "And what if I do? What then? I mean it's been three years." JJ admitted, turning away from him as she paced down the hall a bit as it was like she was trying to talk herself out of going. "What if he went there for a reason? What if he got annoyed dragging his little sister along and just decided it was better to leave? What if he has a whole other life, I mean why would he want to come back? Would he expect me to stay? What if he made himself a new family and doesn't even miss me?" She felt herself breathing a bit faster than normal as she spoke. "I mean that's the reason he never came back right? Or never came to find me?" She stopped and turned to look at Alex. "What if he doesn't miss me?" Her hand wiped under her eye as she felt a bit shaky. What if he didn't care?