He sat up, laying both hands to Josh's back. "I know, love," he sighed. "I know, but...I'm not willing to just let go of you like that. I can't just sit idly by and..." His fingers curled, nails pressing into his palms.
"I love you. That's something that will never change." He dropped his brow above the area where his fists had settled. "I'm sorry," he murmured barely audible, closing his eyes. He took a deep breath, swallowing it down. "I'm so sorry."