Pansy doesn't need your fake smile (pansyinwaiting) wrote in afreshrpg, @ 2012-06-13 14:23:00 |
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Entry tags: | !owl post, character: pansy parkinson, retired: tracey davis |
Tracey,
I keep thinking back to the day we first arrived at Hogwarts seven years ago. We were eleven, and none of us really knew what school was going to be like, and it was a strange new place, surrounded by strange, new people. But that first year, we got to know each other, and that made me feel safe and secure. That year we built up a bond that I believed was stronger than friendship, and I always thought of you, Daphne, and Luce as my Slytherin Sisters.
I've never been good with words. Sometimes they fail me all together, and sometimes I say them meaning one thing, but another comes out. Sometimes I write things that mean nothing at all, and I don't even realize that they might hurt someone I love.
Tracey, I never, ever meant to hurt you. I want you to know that whatever I said was in no way meant to be a strike against you. I would never judge you harshly, especially over a boy. Ten times out of ten, I would choose my girl friends over any boy in Slytherin (or the whole school, for that matter). What we have, or had, is way more important to me than a boy. Whatever I have to do to beg for your forgiveness, just tell me, and I'll do it.
Lately, I've had a broken heart. I keep thinking back to just a few weeks ago, for Daphne's birthday, when all of us girls helped her get ready for her date with Theo. We had such power then, we were all happy, we had that sisterhood. That was the happiest I've been for a long time, and it just kills me to think about losing that, especially over a silly misunderstanding. Today, we're walking out of here for the last time, and I don't want to walk out as strangers. I hope you can find it in your heart to at least think about forgiving me.
Always,
Pansy