Doesn't want to ruin our friendship but doesn't want me to go. This is starting to get a little too confusing, Allegra thought to herself.
"Then what?" she asked quietly. "You say you don't want to ruin our friendship, and I get that, but I don't know how to convince you otherwise. And... I'm not going to suddenly stop talking to you again, I promise, but I don't... I don't think I can stay right now."
All she really wanted to do right now was run to her bed, close the curtains and just sulk and hide from everyone for a while. Because Allegra was pretty sure she couldn't handle running into anyone and having them ask her if she was okay.