lily (evansagain) wrote in 99deatheaters, @ 2011-07-19 21:42:00 |
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It's ready when you are.
The image of that handwriting was burned across the forefront of Lily's recollection. Her heart hammered against her chest as she considered the ramifications of this message. So many things told Lily she was naive to put her trust in anyone at this point, least of all a wizard aligned with Voldemort. She was foolish to be willing to waltz into his house (well, she could hardly waltz in, Lily had never been one for dancing). Perhaps most grossly, she was a downright idiot for willingly giving her son a potion prepared by a Death Eater. This was not lost on Lily, and yet something inside her knew that Severus Snape would not betray her. Their friendship was one for the world, and Lily was certain that she could trust him with her life as she could trust James. There had been a time in her life where this notion made Lily feel guilty, yet tonight she found that she was nothing short of relieved for Severus.
James, on the other hand, he was the one for whom she was feeling guilty. She had not told him of her plan (how could she?) and she doubted he would be precisely overjoyed at the thought. She fully intended to alter Harry's appearance and pass him off as someone elses child. Harry would grow up calling Alice and Frank mum and dad without a clue who Lily and James were. He would never know how much they loved him and what they sacrificed for him, because this was the safest route. Lily was nearing her wit's end, fighting day in and day out to ensure that Harry was cared for and alive. It was wearing on her physically and emotionally to the point that there were days, Gryffindor be sodded, she wondered how she could continue on. And should the day come that she could not, she needed Harry to be with someone who could care for him properly and raise him the way Lily and James would have raised in in another place, another time.
Though she'd have preferred to leave Harry somewhere else, Lily had no choice but to take him along. She wanted Harry to be at Spinner's End when he took the Potion in case something went wrong. Lily was not modest when she claimed that she learned most of her Potionswork from Severus; he was a true magician with a cauldron. That said, she gave him the last of a sleeping draught she had saved and set off.
Unsure of how best to enter the home - she had always thought it a bit rude to just Apparate into someone's living room...once Sirius had done and caught Lily without any trousers on...a memory he jovially recounts to embarrass her still - Lily Apparated right on the other side of the front door. "It's me," she announced. It might be necessary as well, for Lily had not looked like herself for a while. With blonde hair and the lost weight, she looked easily five years older. With the help of a few Charms to get rid of freckles and change the shape of her face a bit, most of her distinguishing features were gone.