Mac (_queen_bee_) wrote in 4bidden_social, @ 2015-05-17 18:16:00 |
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Entry tags: | *character: nicole chavez |
Week 18: Thursday night
Type: Written in Mac's Journal
Who Mac and anyone in the house brave enough to read her journal when she's not around
One right after another. Guess I'm doomed to be bought and sold, used and tossed like some fucking plaything, some damn handbag that went from the designer store, to the half-price rack, and then straight up to a second hand store! Though, this place is far from second hand. Still... so much betrayal, people just giving up on me.
"The Reckoning"
Cross my heart, broke your promise, told me lies.
Why did you watch me suffer and make me feel like I deserved to?
Everybody takes, everybody breaks somebody’s heart leaving some on their own...
But this felt more like you ripping flesh from bone.
You made a mess out of me, Where do I begin?
You pay for your sins...
So many sins. So many changes. Four years on a path that would probably have Carmen so ashamed of me. Carmen...
[Chorus:]
Like a reckoning
You never saw coming
I’m the reaper outside your door
You took everything. Made me feel less than nothing,
I’m getting what I came for!
Like the sound of all the stars crashing in the dark,
I said a prayer and buried your name.
And up through the ashes I rose like wildfire!
The reckoning...
Everything started with vengeance. Such a dark path. Carmen, I'm so sorry. I know you'd hate the woman I've become, but it's all been for survival. After I lost you, I had nothing, I was nothing, bottom of the barrel scum. I couldn't avenge anyone where I was. But I had no idea that this ladder would lead me to such betrayal, backstabbing, and pain. Life with you was so easy. So peaceful. And now I find myself struggling to keep my rank, not lose this new self I've created. And now, more people have to pay, somehow.
I gave you more than my heart could hope for
You misused it.
Scraped up every piece that fell to the floor, When you tore through it.
Laying me to ruin, You knew what you were doing, Leaving me to skin and bone.
But trusting you was no one’s fault but my own...
You get what you give,
So take your last breath,
Before I lay you to rest...
[Chorus Repeat]
[Break Down]
I should have known better than that.
I should have known all along...
I should have known better than that.
I should have known,
But now I’m moving on
[Chorus Repeat]
For every wrong you ever did to me!
I am the reckoning!
What am I really going to do? Castor's my friend, Jack is gone, the omega I've already killed, and Villarreal has long been dead. Who's left to take vengeance on? Myself?