I wanted a life. I wasn't happy just settling into a quiet life. I got restless. That is who I am. You like your quiet life, and it works, but I like to go out, be crazy, enjoy myself, enjoy being a vampire, see the world - etcetera, etcetera, etcetera.
I didn't guilt you about it. I told you about it. Not guilting you was the reason you didn't know about it, because if you want me to guilt you, I can.