"Like you have never been fucking scared." He growled standing up. "This," He showed his hand. "Is everything a were could dream of. Finally finding their mate, their other half. Like the fuck I know it was suppose to happen. Did you have a sign above your fucking head that said 'Derek I'm your mate'? No, you didn't."
"So I was fucking shocked. Yes I handled it wrong, but I didn't know what the fuck to do. You are my mate and I don't know what do! This is a fucking serious thing for me, for us. Had I told what it was when it happened, what the hell would you have done?" Fuck, even Derek knew he had been a shit head and he didn't know how to fix it. If Stiles rejected him he would never feel that peace again.