Lillah Perdue (stuckndollhouse) wrote in 4bidden, @ 2014-07-15 20:25:00 |
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Current mood: | relieved |
Who: Lillah and Michael Meru
Where: Styx and Stones
When: Week 1, Saturday afternoon
What: Lillah is working, Meru comes in.
Rating: SFW
Status: Closed; In progress
Lillah woke up feeling a bit better. It will be a week tomorrow that she was in her new home. And thankfully she was feeling like they were melding as a family. Russell had stopped her nightmares Wednesday night, and then River did it again last night. Lillah was putting together pieces of her own psychology. She had suffered so much negative physical contact by the hands of someone who supposedly loved her, that the best way to counter it was with positive physical contact by people who were getting to know her. Lillah was actually a little floored she hadn't thought of it sooner, but now that she had her answers, her next step was to figure out how to keep this up.
Lillah was working at Ripper's shop that day, on her own. Seemed he believed her competent enough to run it on her own now. It was a bit slow that day and Lillah flitted around everywhere, cleaning, and reorganizing a few things that had gotten jumbled up the previous day. Once her little tasks were done, she sat down at one of the tables and scoped through a psychology book she found in Ripper's library. She wanted to check out her night problems and brush up on PTSD.
Reading aloud to herself, "Three core symptoms characterize posttraumatic stress disorder. First: person frequently recalls the event. Yes. Check. Second, the person avoids stimuli or situations that tend to trigger memories of the experience and undergoes a general numbing of emotional responsiveness. I've avoided but haven't quiet gotten to being numb. Perhaps I have Russ and River to thank for that. Not mention, I can't really be numb around River. Third, the person experiences the increased physical arousal associated with anxiety. What?"
Lillah kept reading to specify what this was talking about. She certainly hadn't been feeling aroused but she was thinking of that word in a sexual way. "She may be easily startled, experience sleep disturbances, have problems concentrating and remembering, and be prone to irritability or angry outbursts. Ah, yes, that's a much better explanation of that word."
Reading about it actually made her calmer about it. It had to do with knowing the unknown and feeling better prepared for it. "Night terrors versus Nightmares," Lillah read, having switched to a different part of the basic psychology book. She was so enthralled into her research that she didn't hear the bell over the door indicating that a patron had come in.