Cat's eyes squeezed tightly shut. He listened, but none of those words brought comfort to him. Only served to hurt him more. He was rejected. He would never be loved by these two, the first people he had ever fallen in love with. He'd been saved by them, but it wasn't...
"I love you both..." he said, voice heavy with tears that burned his eyes behind his lids, but had yet to fall. "I don't. I can't stop loving you, but I can never be loved by either of you. Never..." The tears finally leaked from behind his lids and he turned into the pillow and curled into himself more, into a ball, an arm clutching his knees close, the other the pillow. It hurt so much, and finally a soft sob left him, muffled by the pillow, enough so only Alcuin would hear. Scott would not be disturbed by it, and Cat suppressed his sorrow to keep it that way.