Finally the boy exploded, and with it bared all his secrets. So he was sore about being left behind after Derek came, well he could not go back in time to change that decision.
"And would it have made any difference if I had stayed and held you through your after shocks? Would you not have still pushed me away and called me the same named? And I am not as blind as you give word to. I can see that you are a person and you have feelings. But you also need to forget your feelings. You are a slave now. If you keep hanging onto those childish notions over love and care you will be greatly disappointed."