Caught in my own trap
Loving you... Missing you... Is like a surprise awakening to a shifting of realities, paradigm. Words fail, change, confuse. Feelings, like static, not what they were... Misunderstood.
I said I love you because... I wanted you to hurt at the thought of letting me go. I wanted you to dream you could've had that future you asked for...
But every ringing phone, passing car, approaching shadow... My heart leaps at the thought it could be You.
Until you left, I never thought I'd miss you. Didn't know I meant those words, until you were gone.