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Killian Harris (wi_death_trip) wrote in zenerschool,
@ 2009-07-18 15:51:00

Who ? Killian and Koty
Where ? Koty's room
When ? Saturday afternoon
What ? Stuff.

All of the colors that Koty had drawn on him with the last time they had been together had definitely left an impression on Killian. He'd really liked it, the sparkling paint and the swirls crawling over him. He liked it so much he dug out his paints and spent the afternoon watching Wild Police Videos and painting designs all over his chest and arms. By the time he was finished he was mostly black, every inch of him, and he decided it was like that that he had to show Koty. So, with a black torso, arms, neck, face, and most of his back, he hopped off the counter in the sink and slipped out of his room and to his friend's. He banged annoyingly waiting for him to answer. "Koty! Koty! I'm a negro! Answer the door!"

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sizemedium
2009-07-18 09:15 pm UTC (link)

It took Koty a little while to answer the door. Certainly not with the swiftness that he normally would have answered, especially when he knew it was Killian on the other side (and really, there was no way not to know who was on the other day, given that voice coming through the wood). A giggle floated through the door and eventually Koty followed it - except he didn't float through the door, he just answered it.

He looked completely disheveled, barefoot with rumpled pants and his shirt wrongly buttoned and his hair sticking up. It looked exactly like he had been doing naughty things were it not for the fact that his room was otherwise empty. Well, as far as any other eye could see.

"Killian! Hi!" he said, and he blinked and cocked his head to the side. "You're all black."

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wi_death_trip
2009-07-18 09:33 pm UTC (link)

"It's cool, right?" Koty doing something naughty wasn't the first thought in Killian's head but maybe it would dawn on him lately. "Look!" He held his arms out and then turned around to show him his back. He'd painted it by smearing color on his hands and reaching around behind himself so there were odd streaks and fingerprints where he couldn't quite reach. "You have to finish me!"

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sizemedium
2009-07-18 09:36 pm UTC (link)

"It is cool," Koty agreed with a grin as he looked him over. He'd really done a good job on it, although there were certainly gaps on the back and finger lengths of black like unfinished hand prints. "Er.." He glanced back into the room and then shrugged his shoulders. "Sure, why not. Come in." He stepped back so that Killian could fill the doorway and follow him to the bathroom, because he had black make up in there - and every other colour.

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	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	It definitely wasn't the usual reception Killian was used to. He bit the inside of his lip and was almost sure Koty was going to tell him no but then he'd let him in. He smiled, peeking in and looking around. He didn't see anyone, anyone that Koty could be having so much fun with. "What are you doing?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	"Just -- nothing," Koty replied evasively with a little shake of his head. Killian wouldn't see anyone but Ben was there, in the other room, or had been before Koty had gone to answer the door. "Nothing," he said again. "Sit on the toilet." He went through his basket of make up looking for a pot of black. "With your back to me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	Killian sat, turning his back towards Koty as directed and folded his hands over the tank. "You weren't doing anything?" Obviously he found that very difficult to believe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 10:02 pm UTC (link)
	"Just... stuff," Koty said, sounding almost embarrassed. He didn't think anyone would understand, Killian, or any of his friends or... anyone. It would be really hard to understand fooling around with a ghost (as much as a ghost could be fooled around with). "Just Ben was here and we were doing... stuff." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	"Oh." Ben the ghost...who was still here. It was strange. Ghosts should be gone by now but Koty was really making friends. "We could do stuff too..." He felt like Koty hadn't come to see him in a long time. He couldn't remember the last time Koty had shown up at his door...probably before Ben had gotten there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	If only! Koty scratched the back of his neck. "Not that kind of stuff, Kill," he said softly. He felt a little bad. He hadn't purposefully been neglecting Killian, but it had been so long since there had been someone who wanted him. It was flattering. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	"What kind of stuff can you do with him that you can't do with me?" Ben was a ghost, that meant there shouldn't be anything that he could do that Killian himself couldn't do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	Koty shifted uncomfortably from foot to foot. He smeared some black make up onto his fingers and started rubbing it onto Killian's back. "You know. Stuff you do with a person that you like," he said as he covered up the rest of his friend's skin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 11:09 pm UTC (link)
	"You don't like me?" Killian sounded instantly alarmed and he twisted around to face him, his mouth hanging open in shock. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	"Oh no no that's not what I mean!" Koty was very quick to say that, reaching out to take one of Killian's black painted hands. "I like you! I like you best out of everyone! I just mean.. you know, like like." And then, because he got the feeling he was going to have to spell it out, added, "Sex sort of things." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 11:16 pm UTC (link)
	Koty looked relieved. Sometimes Koty decided they should spend some time apart and he could never predict when his mood would change so it was good to have his fears assuaged. "So...you like like a ghost?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 11:17 pm UTC (link)
	"Well. He's nice. And he's cute. And... he likes me," Koty replied a little bit quietly. "He thinks I'm attractive. He says he wishes he had met me when he was alive." Ben also told Koty that he shouldn't spend so much time with Killian, that he needed to get over him properly. But so far, Koty hadn't taken that to heart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 11:23 pm UTC (link)
	"But he's a ghost!" Killian was trying to figure that part out more than any other. "He's dead. I don't understand." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	"I know! But he still likes me. He wants to be with me!" Koty said defensively. "And he's just really great. And... well I want to be with someone who wants me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-18 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	"But he's a ghost!" He couldn't even understand the mechanics of it. Like a dead person? A dead person liking you? How was that possible? He was dead! "Does that mean you're not in love with me anymore?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-18 11:57 pm UTC (link)
	The mechanics weren't ideal, but it was no different than phone sex or cybersex, except that Ben was there... just not entirely coporeal. Koty shrugged a little bit. "You should be happy that I'm interested in someone else Killian. That I'm not still hung up on you." Except that he was, but he was trying not to be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 12:07 am UTC (link)
	Killian looked at him, an odd sight really since his whole face was black making the whites of his eyes even brighter. After a second he looked away again so Koty could finish painting his back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-19 12:09 am UTC (link)
	Koty went back to work, smoothing the make up over Killian's back until it was all black. "There! It's all done," he said, stepping back and twisting the top back onto the little pot of make up. "It looks good. Really cool." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 12:14 am UTC (link)
	"Thank you." He smiled with black lips, the pink peeking through the cracks before he slowly stood. "I'll leave you alone. I didn't mean to interrupt you. I guess next time I'll send you an e-mail to make sure it's okay." Since Koty wasn't going to be visiting him any time soon. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-19 12:16 am UTC (link)
	"Killian," Koty said softly, reaching out for his hand again. There was a sad look in his eyes. "You don't have to do that. You can come by. Whenever you want. I promise. Just because me and Ben are... well... doesn't mean I won't have time for you. Really." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 12:19 am UTC (link)
	"Koty..." Killian said seriously, glancing around the room before he moved closer to him, "He's a ghost!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-19 12:21 am UTC (link)
	"I know. I know he is Kill," Koty said with a little nod of his head. "But no one's perfect, you know. And we have a lot in common." Largely because Ben was saying all the right things, but Koty didn't know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 12:33 am UTC (link)
	"Wouldn't it be better to find someone corporeal? Even if you had to wait a little while?" It was enough to make him wish he felt the same about Koty as his friend did about him. Hooking up with a ghost was just...well, there wasn't any good way it could end. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-19 12:35 am UTC (link)
	"I like him!" Koty replied. "He's great! We have fun together and I just... I like it!" He curled his fingers through his hair and gripped loosely before releasing. "Killian I've been... I was in love with you for like a year. It's nice to find someone who I can like. Who I can be with. Even if it's not perfect." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 11:43 pm UTC (link)
	Killian just shook his head. It was such a silly notion, hooking up with a ghost. He wasn't really there, they couldn't really be together, there wasn't any future in it. "We have fun together," he told him steadily. "And you can't be with him, he's dead, he's a ghost! He's not even a kid with a sheet over his head, he's not there!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-19 11:44 pm UTC (link)
	Koty looked sad, because Killian spoke the truth. But he didn't care. "It doesn't matter. I like him. And yeah I can't be with him in a real way but it's something and something is better than nothing. And... and why does it even matter?!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-19 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	"Because it's silly!" He insisted, which probably wasn't the best choice of words but Killian certainly wasn't known for his tact. "You're my best friend, you should be spending time with me instead of a ghost who isn't even there!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sizemedium
2009-07-19 11:55 pm UTC (link)

"I'll spend more time with you," Koty promised him. "I will. but I still want... I want to spend time with him. Kill..." His voice got very small and he looked down at his bare feet. "I just want to be loved. It's nice, you know." After a year of unrequited love, he got to feel what it was like to be cared about.

Really it was no wonder that Koty was a perfect target to be taken advantage of.

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	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:31 am UTC (link)
	"This is real!" Killian reached out and took hold of him, holding him steadily. "You see? I can touch you. You can't touch Ben! He's dead, he just doesn't want to go. Why can't you just be happy being my friend?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 12:34 am UTC (link)
	Koty looked up, touched his hands to Killian's sides. "This is real. And I am happy to be your friend. But I want more than that. You're not into that stuff, but me... I am. I want that in my life. That's not such a bad thing, is it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:38 am UTC (link)
	"It is when you're talking about a ghost!" Killian looked worried, stressed, and he lifted his hands to press them against his temples, fingers curled in his hair. "He's a ghost!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 12:39 am UTC (link)
	Koty stepped back and leaned against the wall. "Yeah, he's a ghost, but I don't care! And you should just... be happy for me, or something!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:43 am UTC (link)
	Killian's expression changed to a scowl although it was a small one. "Like you were happy with me about Magda? Instead of just being happy that she died?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 12:44 am UTC (link)
	"I wasn't happy that she died!" Koty exclaimed. "I just... Killian that's different. I was in love with you. You're not in love with me! And Madga, she didn't like you that way. Ben likes me that way. See? It's totally different!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:48 am UTC (link)
	Killian's look turned reproachful and even with all the black make up on he still looked a little sad too. "Ben doesn't like you, he's a ghost. He doesn't like anything anymore." Killian slipped out of the bathroom though, heading for the door. "I'm leaving. You go be dirty with yourself and forget all about me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 12:49 am UTC (link)
	"I'm not going to forget about you," Koty said. "And that's not fair. You don't want to be friends with me anymore because I'm doing something you don't like? That's not fair!" He bumped his head lightly against the wall. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:53 am UTC (link)
	"You'll forget about me." He insisted, looking back at him. "Replace me...I know how it goes." Killian looked back at him as he pulled the door open. "You're making a mistake." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 12:54 am UTC (link)
	Koty opened his eyes and looked very intent. "I'll never forget you in a million years Killian. You'll always be the person I want most of all." He looked sad, because it would be easier if that wasn't the case. "Every day. Always." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 12:58 am UTC (link)
	"You say that now, you think so, but it's not true and you won't. I know." He looked around the room for Ben but didn't see him, couldn't see him, so he looked back at Koty again instead. "You're making a mistake. You should stay with me, it'll be better. We'll be single together forever." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 01:00 am UTC (link)
	"I don't want to be single forever Kill. I know you don't mind it, but I do. I like kissing. And sex. And holding hands and having someone to talk to in the middle of the night and cuddle up with," Koty said whistfully. He couldn't do all of that with Ben, but some things were better than no things at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	wi_death_trip 2009-07-20 01:01 am UTC (link)
	"That's why you'll replace me." He told him darkly and stepped out into the hallway, closing the door behind him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sizemedium 2009-07-20 01:02 am UTC (link)
	Koty went to the door like he was going to chase after him, but stopped himself. He turned, back to the door and closed his eyes to keep them from glassing over and then went back into his room. (Reply to this) (Parent)