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Simon will just LIVE in this booth forever. ([info]magienoir) wrote in [info]yegods,
@ 2012-06-24 14:02:00

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Entry tags:!mini-log, daisuke tendo, simon renaud

Grammofon.

WHO Daisuke Tendo & Simon Renaud
WHERE Daisuke’s Apartment
WHEN June 24th, 2012, Late Morning
RATING PG-13
SUMMARY Mini-log: Simon is human again! And Daisuke learns something unexpected.
STATUS Complete


Simon was fast asleep when the daylight slipped around the curtains, illuminating the corners of the room and casting a faint orange hue over the room. He missed the first touch of light down the line of his shoulder, the shadows between the blades and along his spine, the golden highlight brushing the curve of his lower back and bottom. He made a little face when the sun struck him, making his lashes seem almost blond and illuminating the slope of his cheek, but he remained asleep... asleep and human and entirely naked. Of course, as he was not alone, though this miracle of magic was not yet realized by him, it was only minutes before his partner came alive and found that Simon had returned to human form at some point in the night.

What followed was initially a little confusing to Simon, but when things are going well, one tends to just let them be. For hours. Because it was several hours before Daisuke seemed to have his fill, leaving him on his stomach, worn out and breathless. He really could use a shower. He could have used it before Daisuke got, er, into things, but now he really, really could use one. Except that he is far too exhausted to do anything except lie here and press his forehead against Daisuke's side. His arm is sticking to Daisuke's stomach with sweat, and it's probably uncomfortable, but it seems like it would be far too much effort to move it, even if it would be appreciated. It's too much to even think about food, though he notices he is fairly starving.

"Daisuke," he mumbles, breath still hitching a little as the last tickle of pleasure runs up his body. "I think that is the longest I have ever... Mon canard, you are... exquis."



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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 08:16 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke wasn't quite sure what overcame him. He just became so happy to see Simon back to normal. He had been worried that Simon would be stuck like a cat forever. Of course, he would still love Simon and take care of him. Just what started off as a welcome back kiss turned into the expulsion of sexual tension that had built up. Daisuke had gotten used to a schedule before Simon turned into a cat and now he was making up for lost time. Since it was sunny out, his stamina was monsterous.

Of course, now, exhaustion overtook him. He felt a layer of sweat over his entire body rub up against Simon who also was sweaty. His hairline damp. He lay on his back looking up at the ceiling, wondering for a brief moment if the brothers somehow told mother what he said. Oddly enough, he found he didn't care as much as usual.

His hand ran through Simon's hair gently. It was good to not feel fur, "Simon... " then the next phrase slipped out, almost as an afterthought, "I love you." He really did. He wanted to be with Simon always. However, he did not express this, never good with words in regards to his feelings.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 09:17 pm UTC (link)
Simon closes his eyes, letting out a soft hum of appreciation at the touch. Maybe it is a little like the purring after being petted. He's not entirely sure if his brain is 100% or not yet. There hasn't been time to think about it. His mouth feels numb, his throat a little sore, and his muscles are aching. Other parts, too, but... Anyway. He is human, he feels very human, he feels very wanted, and he feels a little surprised that Daisuke could be quite so vigorous. These are all good feelings. Better than thinking about how he wound up here, which is Sunny's fault, and he could have died. Seriously. He seriously could have died. In a pathetic and unpleasant way, to boot. But he decides not to think about that right now, but just lifts his hand to mimic Daisuke's hair petting, thumbing his hairline gently.

"I know. You love me enough to buy me a cat, and you love me when I am a cat..." He remembers that, at least. "I think you love me... though would you love me if..." He trails off and then gives his head a little shake, chuckling. Things are getting bad. So bad, all he can really do is laugh when he thinks about why all of this probably happened. Is this what Chaos does? Or is this what a world with weakened gods would be like? How frightening. He does laugh at that. "My darling Daisuke," he says, trying to cover up the inappropriate amusement. "I think I'm losing my voice."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 09:48 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke could not think of a time he felt more content than this. He was with who he loved and he felt the sun on his skin. And he felt like he sexually satisfied Simon, which was important to him. At least they got their weekly together exercise!

When Simon mentioned losing his voice, Daisuke kissed the top of Simon's head gently, "You were pretty loud..." He said it with a touch of affection. "I was worried I had lost you. I don't know what I would do if I did lose you."

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 10:25 pm UTC (link)
"Daisuke," Simon says quietly, his shoulders tensing just a little - a vague hint of the change in his thinking, "you know... You know, that someday..." he starts. "Maybe sooner than later..." He stops, pressing his lips together and brow furrowing. "I wish I could always be with you. I wish... I wish we could just be normal people with the full capacity to live run-of-the-mill lives - the sort of people who the most abnormal thing about them might be something like my musical aspirations. We could get married. We could have a house. We could squabble over how to cut the tomatoes or what to watch after dinner. And I could play you music, while you sat and played with Mandarine... People like my grandparents. We could have a perfectly simple, happy life together... We could just be normal humans... Well, aside for the six hour sex sessions." He laughs, but he doesn't sound very amused by it. His expression falls, and he seems to want to burrow into Daisuke's side. "More than anything, that's what I want, but Daisuke, you have to know..." he says, voice very low and soft. "You do, don't you?"

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 10:35 pm UTC (link)
The shift in the topic didn't settle too well with Daisuke. Couldn't he live in this little fantasy with Simon that both of them just exist for each other and that's it? He ended up unconsciously leering down at Simon and was silent for a few moments. He felt broadsided by this.

"I will go through anything for you, Simon," he said in his usual business-line tone, a change from his softer tone he used earlier, the voice he used when he went business. "Even if... the moon became too much. I will be there with my ray of sunlight. I can't abandon you." He wanted to beg Simon to stop talking like this. He didn't want to think about the bittersweet but just the sweet.

"We could still have the house and the... marriage. We can have it while we can..." he forced himself to sound stoic so the fact that this topic upset him wouldn't reach the surface. No doubt Simon picked up on this idiosyncrasy by now.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 10:43 pm UTC (link)
Simon lets his fingers trail down Daisuke's throat and stomach, listening as his boyfriend attempts to convince him that things will be fine no matter what, but he knows better than anyone that's just not possible. Even if he could just quietly go crazy, his mother is sure to seize him and try to make use of him before that. And if he's served a purpose - if he's served and purpose and has little left to be used in him - she will toss him aside. It's horrible to think he only means so much to her, but he knows by now that it's true. He wonders, feeling a pinch of something deep and terrible, if she ever once looked upon him in those days when she had just given birth to him with anything like love. But then, if she did, she wouldn't have abandoned him so quickly. He shakes his head, pressing his face against Daisuke's skin.

"It's not just the curse. It's also her. I can't have this, because I'm only a tool. And for someone like her, a tool is only meant to be used, and if it cannot, then it will be thrown away." He squeezes his eyes shut. "More than anything, I just want to stay here with you... I want this time to last forever and eat everything else, so that there's nothing else to think about... nothing else to worry about... because this moment is all there is."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 10:53 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke felt his eyes sting a little bit to hear Simon talk like this. He wanted to shield him and protect him from that bitch Hecate. His hand slid down Simon's head to his shoulders to bring him closer as if to show that. "I won't let her do that. I won't." He said quietly. He bit his lip to keep it from quivering. Daisuke could not think of a time in which he cared so much for someone. He cared so much it hurt.

"I will make a deal with your demon or something else," he added rather hastily. Daisuke had no idea what he would do. It was a big issue with a solution probably bigger than him. However, Daisuke felt his life would be devoid of meaning if Simon no longer was in it.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 11:03 pm UTC (link)
Simon stiffens and then sits up, looming over Daisuke on his elbows. "Don't say that. No matter what happens, you have to promise me, you will never make a deal for my sake." His expression is momentarily hard, his eyes sharp, but he softens, cupping Daisuke's cheek. "I won't let her, either, though. I have no intention to just stand back and accept the status quo... I... I will do what I can... for you... for me... Even if..." Even if it turns out to be impossible for them to enjoy the fruits of his labors, maybe Daisuke still can. Maybe Daisuke's children can.

He lowers himself, pressing his cheek to Daisuke's chest and listening to his heartbeat. "It's funny how different we were nine months ago."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 11:11 pm UTC (link)
"You made a deal for me," Daisuke said seriously. "You're music, what you wrote for me, is just the tip of the iceberg of what I know you're capable of. I don't want to see that thrown away."

He exhales slowly when he feels Simon's head against his chest. His hand played with the nape of Simon's neck. Then his hand stopped moving when he realized Simon's words. Was he planning something? Simon always had been a schemer.

"Hmm... I know. That Daisuke seems to be so different from this Daisuke. I didn't think I was capable..." Daisuke trailed off. "Simon... what are you planning?"

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 11:16 pm UTC (link)
"I was going to kill Nico. I told you that, didn't I? I went to see Nico, because I was going to kill him, in the hopes that if he was gone, she would love me more than him. That I would be the only one she cared about... But he killed me instead. As I was lying there dying, I realized how alone I was. I realized I hadn't accomplished anything, nor made any lasting bonds without anyone outside my grandparents. I vowed that I would not let myself die such an insignificant death... But I was powerless, wasn't I? All that time, you and Luz hated me... And I think Nico even liked me, but he still sacrificed me in the end. When I stood alone in that room with those four before me... I don't know what came over me, but I suddenly realized what I really wanted was just to free myself - free you, free everyone - from their grasp... I acted irrationally, they overreacted. I died. It would have been okay, but she wouldn't let me rest, and I knew then that she never would, as long as she could use me for something else... But as I got to know you, I found something..."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 11:20 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke listened patiently as he ran his thumb over Simon's nape. That seemed like such a long time ago but it wasn't even a year. Time was a crazy thing.

"I wasn't there to see your death. Just you being reborn. I'm glad you were. If you weren't, I think I would still be asleep..." Daisuke replied sincerely.

Then he leered down at Simon again, "You found something?"

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 11:26 pm UTC (link)
"I found that I didn't care about myself as much anymore. Of course, I cared - I care - about my music. I do. I wish I had a hundred years, to write a hundred scores about the time we're sharing now... But even that isn't so important to me now. At first, I was obsessed with revenge. I was obsessed with not dying ignominiously. I was obsessed with being beloved and making a mark on the world whether it be for better or worse. But you were there all along. You were my friend. Slowly and surely, you became the most important person in my life. I began to feel that there was something far more important than my music, than whether I was loved, or even if I died alone and unmourned. That thing was your happiness. And not just that, but the happiness of people like you... People who feel afraid of freedom, afraid of happiness, because others have told them that they cannot decide what those things are for themselves. So yes, I am up to something."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 11:40 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke didn't know how to react to what Simon just said. He was at a loss for words as Simon told him the most heart-felt speech he ever heard. Yui never said anything like that. Daisuke thought that was love but with Simon it was loving and being loved in return.

"Simon..." he muttered as he felt his eyes sting. If he weren't so tired, he would mount Simon right then and there but instead he just ran his fingers along Simon's spine.

"You showed me how to be happy. And you showed me freedom..." he replied quietly. He did tell off his traditional brothers because of his love.

His tone turned dry, "So are you going to tell me what you're planning? Or am I going to have to guess?"

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 11:44 pm UTC (link)
Simon smiles a little at the soft feeling of Daisuke's fingers on his back. For a moment, he once again wonders if this isn't blending with the pleasure of being petted as a cat, but it feels good, so he just sighs contentedly. The moment is very light in lieu of what he is about to say.

"I'm not entirely sure what I'm planning just yet, but I will face them... and if it is in my power... I may destroy them."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-24 11:51 pm UTC (link)
Daisuke stopped petting Simon's neck when he heard Simon tell his plan. Once again, he was flabberghasted. "Simon... I... you aren't going to pick a fight without a plan are you?"

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-24 11:55 pm UTC (link)
"No. I always have a plan... For this, I will certainly make sure to have a weapon. Somehow, I thought you'd say, 'how could you?'" He sits up, chuckling a little, and moves so that he can again brush Daisuke's hairline with his fingers. "Or maybe worse, 'I want to help.'" He cocks his head a little. "I am happy that you didn't say either, though. As you have guessed, even if I have a plan - even if I have a weapon - there's still a large possibility... I don't want you to be dragged down with me."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-25 12:02 am UTC (link)
Daisuke shut his eyes at Simon's touch. Somehow, he didn't like this plan, whatever it was. He did want to shout at Simon how could you and offer his sword. However, he did neither.

At the last part, Daisuke's eyes opened up suddenly, "Si. Either I go down with you, or you don't do this." He paused for a moment before adding, "I understand why you're doing this. But I may think you may have a bigger hero complex than me..." One corner of his mouth turned upward in a wry smile.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-25 12:20 am UTC (link)
For a moment, Simon studies Daisuke with that luminous, blank expression that he sometimes wears when he doesn't want someone to know what he's feeling or thinking, but then he smiles just a little. "I spoke too soon?" he asks, leaning down to kiss Daisuke. He doesn't exactly agree or disagree with Daisuke's terms. "A war is coming, mon canard," he whispers, trailing kisses down Daisuke's cheek to his ear. "And she is behind it... It seems only suitable that I become the hurdle... If someone must... then it will be me." Because I love her. He pauses on that thought. "It might not remove my curse, but maybe... if things worked out... At least, if you really mean it, about not caring if I was..." He leans back, staring down at Daisuke.

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-25 12:27 am UTC (link)
Daisuke accepted Simon's kiss as he continues to trail up and down Simon's spine with his index finger. At the mention of war, Daisuke stiffens a little bit. Time to sharpen his sword. He didn't entirely disagree that it would make sense to Simon to face off with his mother.

"I love you, Simon," Daisuke said more easily. "That means I will always be with you..." He kisses Simon's neck once in response. "I mean it."

He paused for a moment, "I want to be by your side. Okay? I'll have your back." He paused for a moment, "Just put a lot of thought into your plans and don't rush in foolishly. I know you're smart so you won't do that..." the last sentence was said quite pointedly.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-25 12:35 am UTC (link)
Simon nods dutifully. He isn't sure if there are yet things that might drive Daisuke away, but maybe there really aren't. Maybe, given everything else they've gone through together, Daisuke really is here to stay. Maybe this isn't so ephemeral after all. He would like to believe in that... He really would. He closes his eyes, taking a deep breath, and the nods again. "Of course," he replies. And then more softly: "Of course."

Leaning down to kiss Daisuke on his brow, he adds (rather slyly), "Though now... I think I either would like to have breakfast, or one more go..."

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[info]agenttendo
2012-06-25 12:43 am UTC (link)
Daisuke's logical side suddenly woke up, probably put to sleep by hormones, and Daisuke realized just what he committed to. It was a plan with no set plan. He said what he did all because of love. He couldn't realize this happened. However, he doesn't voice his concerns.

"Another go? I thought I wore you out!" Daisuke teased a little bit as he rests his hands on Simon's hips. "It's up to you, Si. Although I am sure you would like a meal that isn't tuna! Or my ... you know." Daisuke still have not perfected dirty talk.

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[info]magienoir
2012-06-25 01:10 am UTC (link)
"I might still have just a little left in me," he replies in a hoarse little purr, kissing the edge of Daisuke's jaw. "One more time, and then eggs benedict."

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