It's going to be a good Christmas this year.

I really need to stop meeting people in bars.

I think I'm gonna order in for Thanksgiving and just watch Christmas movies that entire week.

I am SOO glad the G-boxes are working again.

I go on a five minute diaper run and end up God knows where.

Anyone alive out there? Brookster? Nathan? Hales?

My baby girl turned 1 year old on Monday. Just been rather quiet on things, though had a good birthday party for her. It's hard right now, without Lucas here.

My baby girl is going to be one year old in less than two weeks. I only wish Lucas were here to see her...

( Other me, Hales, Nate )

Been keeping a low profile after... well...

Sydney's 8 months old. I wish Lucas could see her.

Oh, I have such a sinking feeling about this. It is way too quiet all'a sudden.

Intelligent life. Please present yourself. If you're not here, I am so screwed.

Sydney's first Christmas and her daddy isn't here to see it...

What the hell happened to my store?

I can't get her to stop crying. Every time I cry, she cries. Every time she cries, I cry. Dammit!

Brooke... I'm... I'm sorry.

I've got to work on my new album.

Whoa. Hey, uh...next time somebody spikes the coffee supply with the happy go weirdo juice? Remind me not to drink it?

I feel like I was somebody else for a week. And that there was a part of my mind that was missing...some big powerful force wasn't there, and it actually made me happy.

Yeah, not drinking anything but water for awhile. Or Mountain Dew. At least I know that's bottled and safe.

Edit:
And while I'm at it, where the fuck did everybody go? Tess and all her entourage, a whole shitload of those people from Neptune, all of them. Did God just clean house and not tell anyone what the hell was going on or what? Jesus, Gigi. You could have warned a guy that he was losing a surrogate sister.

I don't know what to do...

Wait, wait wait. I can't get ahold of Logan. Or Tess. I know I've been busy the last few days, but...

Someone please tell me this is NOT happening.

Kriff this place, Gigi, and kriff you. Why do you keep doing this?

And on top of that, half my friends that are actually left are acting crazy.

That's it. I'm getting drunk tonight. If anyone else is going to disappear you should just do it now and get it over with.

Lucas... please come back... your daughter and I need you...

NO!!! WHY?!?!

Why am I so down?