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Emily Peters (dragonkenna) wrote in wherehomeis,
@ 2008-11-28 22:17:00

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Caitlin felt uncomfortable.

She knew it wasn't because this was the first time she had been to the lab area since the explosion. Nor was it because it was the first time she had been away from Shaun for more than a few hours since his birth. The infant was with her father, and she trusted him with Shaun. No, whatever was making her feel like this was much deeper than what had happened several weeks before. Caitlin felt like she was...changing.

It started a few days before when Erin lied to her about getting into the cookie jar. The little girl swore she hadn't, but Caitlin could smell the sweet scent of chocolate chips coming from the girl, even though she was on the other side of the room. And, it didn't stop there. Caitlin could smell things she hadn't smelled before. She could tell when Shaun needed a change before she even stepped into the nursery. And she could smell Rodney, Carson and Kade.

All of them had different smells. Rodney smelled like jello and worry; Kade smelled like copper and authority; and Carson - oh, Carson smelled the best. He smelled like comfort and love and sweets. And Caitlin had become attached to it.

Her attachment to Carson had almost become territorial. She made sure Kade and Rodney couldn't sleep by him at night, and she made sure she got to always sit with him. She thought all the smells, and her heightened since of sound, were part of the connection. She had to believe it was part the connection.

Then her mouth started to hurt. A dull pain in her upper gums. Caitlin pushed it aside and made an appointment to see the city's dentist.

But today everything seemed to be crashing around her. She felt like she was about to crawl out of her skin, and it was frustrating. The only comfort she had was the fact she could smell Carson, even though he was all the way in medical. However, her comfort flew out the window when another scent mingled with Carson's. Caitlin didn't like it so she stood from her chair and went down to medical.

When she got to the doorway, Caitlin softly growled when she saw Doctor Woods standing next to Carson as they looked at a microscope. To the naked eye the two just looked like two co-workers working on something, but Caitlin could hear the way Doctor Woods' heart would beat faster when Carson stood close to her. Without hesitation, Caitlin walked into medical and squeezed her way between Woods and Carson.

"He's married," Caitlin merely said.

"I wasn't doing anything," Woods said.

"Don't lie," Caitlin said as she lowered her gaze. "Leave."

Woods stared at her for a moment before dumbly nodding. "Leave, yes," she said as she picked up her things before walking out.

Caitlin turned around and smiled at Carson. "I missed you," she said before wrapping her arms around him, and nuzzling her nose against his clothes. Her Carson smelled so wonderful.

"Cait?" Kade said as he stood from where he was sitting. Caitlin looked at him and saw the worried look on his face. "What was that?"

She ignored him and looked at Carson again. "I want to go home. I'm tired and I want to spend time with you before Rodney gets home," she said.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 01:22 am UTC (link)

"So you've noticed it as well," Kade asked, resting one hand on his chin with the other supporting his elbow as he stood by the window in Carson's office.

Carson nodded as he crossed over to window to lean against it. "Aye. It's a bit hard to ignore, considering she hasn't let me sleep next to either of you for awhile now. Do you think it's anything serious? Will she be all right?"

"I'm not sure. It could just be her reacting to everything that happened. The explosion was very traumatic, considering that you had to take Shaun out to save both their lives. Perhaps she's just clinging to something familiar."

"Perhaps," Carson agreed, rubbing the back of his neck. He was worried for his wife, though. There were...feelings he was picking up from her every now and then that seemed to indicate it went beyond just trying to adapt to what had happened, but he wasn't sure. "Maybe we should take a few days off and go somewhere. Get away from the city so--."

Before he could finish, Doctor Woods came in. "Doctor Beckett-McKay, would you come take a look at this sample. There's something about it that I can't quite put my finger on, and I thought a fresh set of eyes might help."

"Of course," he said, pushing away from the window and crossing over to the office door. He follower her to the medical lab and bent over the microscope to look at the sample. Frowning, he turned the wheel to focus the lens, but before he could get a really good look, he was suddenly distracted by Cait coming in and pushing in between him and Doctor Woods. He looked at her in surprise as she spoke to his colleague, wondering what in the hell was going on. He was about to ask her, but then she wrapped her arms around her, and he found himself embracing her tightly as he sensed her sudden need to be close to him.

He still didn't understand what was going. Kade was worried about something, but Cait was saying she was tired. He wanted to know what was going on, but at the same time, he didn't want to push her. Finally, he nodded to her.

"Come on then," he said, guiding her out of medical. Together, they headed down to their quarters. When they got there, he looked at her. "Do you want something to drink? Tea maybe?"

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 01:45 am UTC (link)

Caitlin found herself smiling when Carson agreed to take her home. They didn't get spend enough alone time together anymore. Looking back at Kade, her smile widened when she saw he wasn't going to follow them. Carson was hers, and she wasn't going to allow anyone to bother them. When they got back to their quarters, Caitlin shook her head. "I'm fine. Come snuggle with me on the couch," she said.

She didn't wait for Carson to answer before pulling him down on the couch with her. Snuggling close, she let out a content sigh as she nuzzled his neck. As she did, Caitlin suddenly had the urge to taste his blood. She could hear it rushing through his veins, and she wanted it. "Carson...have you ever thought about what it would be like drink another human's blood?" she asked.

Before she could say more, the doors slid open and Kade walked in with Rodney. "Cait, we need to talk," he said.

Caitlin moved closer to Carson and stared at Kade. "About what?" she asked.

"There's something wrong with you and if it's what I think...then the legend is true," Kade said with a worried look. "You enthralled Doctor Woods, didn't you? And you've been smelling and hearing things you haven't before. That's why you attached yourself to Carson...because he seems inviting to you. I even bet you've wanted to taste his blood."

Tears filled Caitlin's eyes and she nodded. "I can't help it! I can smell and hear things I couldn't before, and the only person I want to be around is Carson. What's wrong with me?" she cried. Suddenly, there was a sharp in her mouth, followed by one in her lower lip. Caitlin could smell her own blood but it smelled different from human blood.

"Oh god," Rodney said, his eyes wide. "Why does she have fangs?"

Kade dropped in front of Caitlin and frowned. "I-I think my blood turned her into a Sangui," he softly said.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 01:14 pm UTC (link)

Carson found himself being pulled down to the couch by Cait, so he wrapped his arms around her to hold her close. Once again, she started to nuzzle him, and he found himself shuddering a bit. However, at her question, he blinked in surprise and tilted his head to look at her. He knew that she had to drink Kade's blood because of what had happened, but human blood? Did she want to drink human blood?

He was about to ask her what was going on when Kade and Rodney came in. And as Kade started speaking, he felt as though something had just kicked him in the gut. Something was really wrong with Cait. He could feel the upset and worry almost explode from her and then suddenly...she had fangs. Carson stared at her, a knot tightening in his throat. A Sangui? Cait was a Sangui? Oh God, had he caused this with his decision?

"Did you know this might happen?" he asked Kade, his voice hoarse and almost non-existent from the tightness he felt in his throat.

Kade shook his head. "We thought it was a legend. There were stories from long ago that a very few who received Sangui blood to heal them had become Sangui themselves, but no one could ever remember it actually happening. So we thought it nothing more than a story."

"Like vampire legends on Earth," Rodney said, his voice almost as hoarse as Carson's. "But it's happened! Look at her!"

"I know," Kade said before turning and reaching up to Cait. "I'm so sorry, my love. I didn't know. You're feeling the way all Sangui adolescents do when they enter the final stages of maturation. Everything is overwhelming, so they attach themselves to someone, usually their parents, while they finish changing. You've chosen Carson possibly because you've been connected to him the longest. Until your change is complete, he's going to be anchor, the one who keeps you grounded."

Carson found himself wrapping his arms around Cait more tightly to hold her close as he looked over at Rodney. This was a huge thing to deal with, but she was still their wife, and he wasn't going to let her go through this alone.

"This means she's going to need to drink blood, like a Sangui?" he asked softly.

Kade nodded. "All that we are, she is now too."

Carson nodded. "Would you two mind leaving us alone then?" He looked at Rodney, seeing the look on his face. I know this is hard, love. But please. For Cait's sake.

"Are you sure?" Kade asked. When Carson nodded, Kade rose and put his hand to Rodney's back, leading him out.

Once they were only, Carson shifted and cupped his hand to his wife's face. "I love you, Cait, and I'm not going to leave you. I'll do whatever you need me to to help you through this."

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 02:05 pm UTC (link)

Caitlin's body started to tremble as she ran her tongue over the tips of her fangs. She didn't want them, and suddenly they were gone again. Caitlin wanted to point out she was all right but Kade seemed to think differently. As he spoke, his words seemed to blend together and she could hear Rodney's heart racing. And when he yelled, she jumped a little and buried her face against Carson's chest.

The change she had been feeling for days now finally made sense. She was no longer human but Sangui, and she didn't understand what it meant. Would she be allowed to stay in Atlantis, or would she have to leave? She remembered how the IOA made her dad leave the Stargate program after he'd been infected by the Replicators. And what were CT and her dad going to think? What about the children and her friends? Were they going to end up shunning her?

As Kade continued to speak, Caitlin closed her eyes. She remembered everything Kade had ever told them about the Sanguis. They never fed from their offspring, which made her feel better. However, she would have to feed a few times a week, and she could never go back to Earth since the Sangui was highly allergic to Earth's sun.

Suddenly, Carson was cupping her face and Caitlin blinked when she realized Rodney and Kade were gone. She looked into her husband's eyes and nodded. "It's not your fault. I...you were just trying to save my life. Don't be upset, Carson. I-I can smell it on you." She then looked at the door. "I think Rodney's mad. I just feel comfortable with you. Even before all of this happened...I know that's awful but I've loved you the longest and..." She trailed off and looked at her husband again. She placed her hand to his neck, shuddering when she sensed his blood once again.

"Carson...I think I need to feed," Caitlin whispered as her fangs slid out again.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 03:45 pm UTC (link)

When Cait said she could smell his guilt on his, Carson felt bad. He was trying to block that from her since she obviously had enough to deal with, but apparently she could sense it from him in other ways now. He took several deep breaths and nodded, trying to push it aside so he could focus on helping her. He had done what he had thought was right. None of them could have foreseen this happening, not when even the Sangui thought it was a legend.

Moving his hand up, he ran his fingers over her temple and through her hair. "I think it's just a lot for him to process, love. He loves you, and of course he wants to be here to help you. But once he settles down, he'll understand. I know he will."

He knew Kade was probably right - he and Cait had been together the longest and had been through the most. He needed to draw on that to ground her while she finished changing. And he knew that no matter what happened to her, he'd always love her. After all, they loved Kade too.

As Cait pressed her hand to his neck, Carson sucked in a deep breath when he sensed the hunger emanating from her. It was similar to what they had started feeling from Kade over the last few weeks, but more urgent and less controlled. And he could feel how much she needed him to satiate that hunger, so he moved forward and tilted his head to the side.

"Go on, love," he told her softly. He trusted her with his life and knew she wouldn't take too much or hurt him. I love you.

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 05:55 pm UTC (link)

Caitlin wasn't sure if she should feed from Carson without Kade there. She was afraid she would hurt him and take too much. However, the hunger wouldn't go away, and Carson's blood seemed to be calling to her. When Caitlin heard his love ringing through her head, she knew it would be all right. If Carson trusted her, then she needed to trust herself. She was never hurt him.

Slowly, she pulled herself up to her knees and looked at him. Caitlin leaned forward and slowly ran her tongue over the pulse of his neck. She ached for his blood so she tilted her own head and pierced his skin with his fangs. She didn't suck at first; instead, she allowed Carson's blood to lather tongue. Caitlin's body shuddered and she felt herself throb. She had never been bitten by Kade since she had been pregnant, but she always felt what it was like through Carson, Rodney, and him. However, this was more intense.

Caitlin started to slowly suck, allowing Carson's blood to fill her mouth before she swallowed. When she'd had enough, Caitlin retracted her fangs and slowly licked the bite area, watched as it healed. Sitting back, she took several deep breaths, her body humming as Carson's blood moved through it. It was most amazing thing she had ever felt.

Opening her eyes, Caitlin looked at him for a brief moment, before leaning forward to capture his lips in a deep and passionate kiss. As they kissed, she moved closer and started to tug at his shirt. Need you. Please.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 07:16 pm UTC (link)

Carson shuddered as Cait's tongue ran over his neck. Kade had fed from him several times, so he had got used to it, but considering everything that he could feel from Cait, this experience was very different, especially when her fangs pressed into his skin. He felt an explosion of pain and pleasure rush through his nerves, a thousand times more intense than with Kade. Groaning, he reached up to grab hold of his wife's arms as she drank from him, arousal rushing through him.

After a few moments, he felt his body starting to quiver, and just as he started to feel light-headed, Cait pulled back. He felt her lick his neck again the way Kade always did to heal the bite, and soon, the pain and light-headed was completely gone. All that was left was the pleasure running through both him and Cait.

Taking a deep breath, Carson opened his eyes, looking at Cait. She was so beautiful, he though, just as she moved forward to kiss him. Reaching up, he tangled his fingers in her hair. He had already started to harden, so when she started to pull his shirt off, telling him she needed him, he nodded.

Taking hold of the hem of her shirt, he pulled it up off her and tossed it to the side. His hands then ran up over her soft skin to cup her breasts, teasing them and pinching them lightly.

Here? he asked. Or the bedroom?

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 07:32 pm UTC (link)

Caitlin got Carson's shirt off and tossed it to the side. She could never remember a time when she felt so aroused. When he pulled off her own shirt, she shuddered and groaned as his hands found her breasts. "Bedroom," she hoarsely said. "Now."

Standing from the couch, she roughly pulled her bra off and tossed it to the side before pulling Carson up. She walked him to the bedroom, where she stood in front of him. Caitlin kissed him hard, their teeth practically slamming together. There was an urgency between them and she ran her nails down his chest, and to the top of his pants. As one hand undid his pants, the other hand pressed against his cock. Soon, she had the pants undone, and she pulled back to pull his pants and boxers off.

Caitlin then pulled off her own pants and pressed against Carson, and started to rub against him. She ran her tongue over his neck and pressed against him even harder. Pulling back, she took his hand and led him to the bed, where she had him sit on the edge. Caitlin straddled his lap and pressed down on his cock, crying out as he filled her up.

She didn't move at first. Instead, she ran her fangs over the skin of his shoulder and up to his neck. Pressing her mouth against his ear, she whispered, "I want to bite you as you come." Pulling back, she grinned at him as she started to thrust hard on him.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 09:56 pm UTC (link)

Carson nodded when Cait said she wanted them to go to their bedroom. His cock was hard and practically aching, and all he wanted was to be with her, inside of her. He didn't care where.

So when they reached the bedroom, he groaned as they pressed against each other once Cait had stripped the rest of their clothes off, their kisses passionate and deep and hard. He'd never felt quite this out of control before, and he knew part of it had to be what Cait was feeling.

Soon, she had him sitting on the bed and was straddling him. When she pushed down, sheathing his cock in her tight heat, Carson let out a strangled groan. Oh God, she felt unbelievable with all the pleasure that was running through him and knotting deep down inside him. Wrapping his arms around her, he held onto her tightly, shuddering as she ran her fangs across his skin.

"Dear God," he moaned when she whispered in his ear before starting to move on him. He pressed his hips up, meeting each of her thrusts, pushing himself as deep as he could go. Moving one arm from where he had it wrapped around her, he brushed his hand over her breast, swiping the nipple with his thumb before moving down between them to rub her clit.

Before long, the out-of-control pleasure was becoming too much, and Carson knew he wasn't going to be able to hang on any longer.

"Love...I'm going to...can't..." he tried to warn her before he lost control, his cock twitching wildly inside her. "CAIT!"

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 10:30 pm UTC (link)

Caitlin had never had sex like this before. Yes, the four of them experimented at times but it was nothing like this. She wanted Carson to push into her as hard as he could, even if it might hurt her. And with each thrust, Caitlin felt herself getting close to falling over the edge. But she wanted to hang on for a bit longer. She wanted to come with Carson as she pierced his skin with her fangs.

She gasped when his fingers started to rub her clit. Caitlin pressed down harder, her body covered in a sheen of sweat. It was hard to keep control anymore. She could sense Carson was close - she could smell it, too. Her fangs slid down again and just as Carson started to warn her, she dipped her head down and bit into the top of his shoulder.

The bite sent waves of pleasure through her and that, coupled with everything Carson was feeling, pushed her over the edge. Caitlin let out a muffled cry, her fangs still in Carson, as she came hard around his cock. She pulled her head up and slowly licked the bite, her body still trembling.

After several moments, she looked at Carson. "Are you all right?" she asked, hoping she hadn't hurt him.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-29 11:05 pm UTC (link)

The feel of Cait's fangs piercing his skin the moment he started to come as well as her clenching hard around his cock caused Carson to almost blackout, it was so overwhelming. He shook as he held on to her until he finally started to settle, his body feeling like jelly.

Taking several deep breaths, he raised his head and looked into his wife's eyes. "I'm okay," he told her softly, pressing his hand to her cheek.

He knew, though, that even though the feeding and sex had calmed Cait somewhat, she was still adapting to the change.

"Cait...maybe we should take a few days and go somewhere," he suggested, resting his forehead to her. "Get away from her, somewhere you can relax while you're getting use to this and not have worry about everything else. I know Rodney and Kade will understand. So will the others. Kyri's uncle said at the wedding that all of us were welcome any time. Maybe there?"

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dragonkenna
2008-11-29 11:38 pm UTC (link)

Caitlin was glad Carson was all right. The last thing she wanted was to hurt him. Leaning her forehead against his, she stared into his eyes. When he suggested they get away for a few days, she felt herself calm a little. It was so difficult for her to concentrate with all the new smells and sounds surrounding her, and she knew time away would help.

"I would like that very much," she whispered before softly kissing him. Carson was so good to her. She had put him through so much and he was still there. Caitlin would have to find a way to properly thank him. "We should have Rodney and Kade come back so we can talk to them. I'm still worried Rodney is upset with me."

She carefully slipped off his lap and went to the bathroom, where she gathered some towels and returned to the bedroom. She cleaned the both of them up before they gathered their clothes and got dressed. Once they were, Caitlin used her connection to call Kade and Rodney back.

When they arrived, Caitlin found herself avoiding eye contact with Rodney. She wasn't sure if he was upset with her or not. "Are you mad at me?" she finally asked. "I..I could smell it earlier..."

Rodney stared at her for a brief moment before shaking his head. "No. I could never be mad at you. I was mad at everything else, and worried. I never want to see you hurt and I didn't know how to handle myself. Kade helped me relax," he said as he stepped forward and pulled Caitlin into a tight embrace. "I love you."

"I love you too," she whispered as she held on to him.

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cbeckettmckay
2008-11-30 12:54 am UTC (link)

Carson smiled softly and nodded when Cait said she wanted to take the time away. "I'll speak to Sam then," he told. He knew that they would have to explain what had happened to her, but he knew that for right now, her well-being was more important.

As was their husband's and lover's feelings.

Nodding when Cait said she wanted to talk Rodney and Kade, he helped her clean them up and then got dressed. When they arrived, he wrapped his arm around Cait to give her support. He was glad that he was right and that Rodney wasn't upset with her. Smiling softly as they embraced, he then looked over at Kade and reached out to take his hand, pulling him closer.

"We're going to go away for a few days," he told them. "You said Cait is adjusting and using me for an anchor. It might be easier if we do it away from here where there's not so much going on."

Pulling back slightly from his embrace of Cait, Rodney looked at both of them. Carson moved to wrap his arms around him, tugging Kade over as well.

"Just for a little while," he promised. "You know we love you both very much and wouldn't leave you even for a little while unless it was for a good reason."

Rodney nodded. "I know. It's just..."

He could tell their husband was at a loss since there wasn't much that he could do and he was used to trying to find solutions to everything that happened. "We know," Carson said softly before leaning up to kiss him.

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dragonkenna
2008-11-30 01:08 am UTC (link)

Caitlin felt bad at how Rodney was talking the news of her and Carson leaving for a few days. She continued to hold him, hoping the love she felt for him was enough to calm him. She loved Rodney so much and hated all of this for happening. All Caitlin wanted to do was get this over with so things would get back to normal.

As the four of them huddled together, Caitlin felt a lump form in her throat. She really didn't want to leave their husband, lover, and children behind, even if it was for the best. But she knew she had to do this. "I love you Rodney and Kade," she whispered as tears rolled down her cheeks. She buried her face against Rodney's chest. "I promise to be better when I get back."

"Don't worry about it," Kade said as he rubbed Caitlin's back. "Once you get through this, you'll be able to attach to Rodney and me. It'll probably happen with Rodney first, followed by it happening with me. Things will work out eventually. Promise."

Caitlin pulled back and looked at Rodney. "You sure you can handle me following you around like a puppy when I get back?" she asked with a smirk.

"If you become too much of a problem, I'll just hand you off to Carson," Rodney snorted. He jumped back a little when Caitlin swatted at him. "Seriously...why wouldn't I be all right with it? I have the hottest wife on Atlantis. Plus, you're super sexy with your fangs out."

Caitlin found herself chuckling as she looked back at Carson. "He's such a prat at times but I think I'll keep him. Need someone to feed from," she said before she gave Rodney a wink.

"Hey!" Rodney pouted.

All of them laughed and pulled him back into their group hug.

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