I worry about Fitz. I worry about all of the team that isn't here, but I especially worry about Fitz.
I miss him. But things between us were so complicated back home. Leaving that behind here, both of us leaving it behind, was better. I wonder if it's selfish of me to be a little glad he hasn't come back. I do want him here. It's safer here and I would know he was all right. But I worry he wouldn't remember and there was just so much without...everything we worked through here. That we didn't back home.
john.I don't love Fitz.
I mean, of course I love Fitz. He's Fitz. But I'm not in love with him. Not the way he's in love with me. I think, back home, there was just so much pressure. There were so many things...so many people telling me I should love him. It was easier to give in to that. It was easier to forget about what I wanted and focus on what he wanted.
But I want you to know, and maybe I should be telling you this in person but I've never been very good with words...not with people, face to face, that I am in love with you. Not Fitz. You. And I'm happy, more happy than I have been in a long time, to be building a life here with you.