I Resist the Muses

What makes me laugh? Pretty much anything as long as it's happening to someone else. No, seriously. Especially when I'm stoned.

Uh, you wanna hear a joke?

What do you call a prostitute who becomes an accountant?

Give up?

Tally-ho!

Hahahaha! Holy crap, that gets me every time.

I'd never admit it to anybody but I've known for years that my greatest fear was being alone. I've always had friends, always. Sure you can call me a jackass and immature but I must be doing something right because I have never not had people surrounding me. When I'm bored I always have someone to call. I hate being alone. Some people like spending time by themselves to reflect or whatever but that sort of stuff drives me crazy. I think too much when I'm alone. And thinking is definitely a bad thing, especially now.

In high school being alone was never a big threat for me. In the rare instance where my friends were too busy I always had Cassidy to hang out with. Even if he did have plans. He'd cancel them if I moped around long enough. Now he's gone and my family is gone and my friends from high school aren't really keen on hanging out with the brother of a psychopath. Except for Logan. Not that he could really use the crazy brother excuse since his dad was just as crazy as Cassidy. Logan still hangs out with me and I appreciate it, I really do. It's just having one friend is way too close to being alone for me.

I've lived in Neptune my whole life and if there's one thing I learned it's that the families here leave a lot to be desired. Until last year I actually thought I had one of the more normal families. Successful dad, a mom who lives in Europe and a little brother who was a big dork like little brothers are. Occasionally there was a stepmom thrown in there. Pretty normal, for Neptune. No big family scandals, no murderers and any affairs my dad had were covered up well. I was the screw up in the family and I don't think I was even that bad.

Turns out my family was just as screwed up as everyone else's in Neptune. It just took a while for me to realize it.

Families fight, fine, I get that. I never expected there to be a day where Cassidy and I didn't get in an argument. I wasn't shocked when my Dad came home announcing that he was getting another divorce. That whole Leave It To Beaver stereotype is bullshit. But who just leaves their family? Who cares so little about their kids that they just fucking leave? My parents, I guess. At least I got some warning when my mom left for Europe. I had to find out about my dad leaving on the news. And Cassidy...well the screaming from outside the hotel was enough to draw me away from the graduation party. Not that I blame him for leaving. I would have killed myself too. Bottom line is, he still left.

Family are the people who stay. It's as simple as that. I don't even want to think about what that says about my so-called family.

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Character: Dick Casablancas
Fandom: Veronica Mars
Word Count: 434
Note: Dick's from post s2 of Veronica Mars, hence the emo.

( Wow, that question would have been so much easier to answer a few months ago... )

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